Winteru no Kokoro

Confused

2010-06-20T02:11:00.000-07:00

a guy just confessed to me yesterday
i didn't give him answer. instead i cried, because all that i remembered is you and how i wish it was you

Challenge

2010-06-02T01:21:00.000-07:00

Tell me people, how could I beat master students from European top business school, majoring in Finance/Econs to get a top private equity job in Nordic?

It's indeed a greatest opportunity for me here in Stockholm, but the challenges are super big. I know my chance getting in is super slim. I'm bachelor, not in finance, much more inexperienced.

Therefore I want to make a nazar. I'll fast for 2 weeks should I get this offer. Amin.

Bismillah....

Motto

2010-05-24T05:54:00.000-07:00

Been thinking about my personal motto a lot and this one really stick to me...since dunno when.

"I may be ignorant but I am no hypocrite"

Well, ignorant in the sense that I don't give a damn about things that do not interest me. Like, global warming, carbon footprint etc. Well yeah I know that it's really needed for sustainable future bla bla bla, but I just can't bring myself caring about those, even though everybody talking about it.

And as far as I knew I am no hypocrite. Sometimes people say that whatever emotion I have, it'll be shown right in my face haha, so how could I be hypocrite lolz? and hypocrite just doesnt match with my horoscope, Sagitarius (doh, what a bad reasoning).

Yeah anyway..i'm no hypocrite. if u think otherwise, write comment! haha

What kind of future do I want?

2010-05-22T02:05:00.000-07:00

Typical question for late teenagers, isn't it? But lately it keeps bugging me, you know, the period when you really think what you should do and what you wanna do in the future.

I'm 18, only 18 or already 18? OK, actually whenever I talk to people they never expect me to be 18, which is great I guess, since that means I'm more mature than normal 18 haha.

I don't know who I wanna be in the future, though I might have some vague picture. I know I wanna be businesswoman, the REAL businesswoman, not just a worker working 9-6 with standard salary with routine and boring tasks. For now I wanna be either investment banker, or entrepreneur. Those 2 seems contradict to each other, one is slave, working 100 hours/week and the other is the "boss" in its own right. My long term goal is to be the latter for sure, but in the early years of my career, 5-10 years, I believe IB would be a perfect choice.

I don't deny that I am running for IB because of its reputation. It's hard to break into, work damn looong hours etc etc. But hey, I always love challenges. And I know I want to work there. Not because of money (its hourly salary actually pays less than McD) but because of the networks that you could get there. OK, what job that allows you, since your first year, at the bottom of corporate ladder, to meet CEOs, BODs or any other executive management of big companies, handle their main decisions? IB. or consultant, fine. Networks of great businessmen, exposed at the early years of your career, wouldn't hurt I guess :)

And what's more is its own reputation. There are 3 kind of jobs based on my opinion for college graduate. IB, normal average Joe, entrepreneur. First one, work super long hours, life only for working, making really big bucks. Second one, earn average, always waiting for weekend, normal life. Entrepreneur is too wide to be generalized...but u know, u get it.

What I know for sure, I don't wanna be average Joe. Well, I know their work-life balance is better than the rest (entrepreneur cant even differentiate private vs work), but hey, screw work-life balance. In this world if you wanna achieve something, you have to sacrifice. And in order to achieve my success, I dont care abt work-life balance.

Come to think of it. In this world, I hate to be average. At least in my circle of friends, I always try to be different from them, because what I fear most is not becoming the worst, but becoming the same as the rest, you know, becoming the average. That's why in Sweden, when I heard that the high-achiever students are not getting anything, in fact they have to "wait" for the rest to catch up with them, I really hate it. What's being lagom thing?? Lagom means "not too much, not to less" or in other word, average. Swedish people in general love to be average.Well yeah, with socialist government for decades you cant blame them. But yeah, I just dont like it.

Come back to my problem...yeah, I just hate to be "the middle class". Well in Indo there's no real middle class I guess. Only super rich, a bit rich, a bit poor, super poor. And if you're working 9-6 with Indo salary, I'm sorry, but in my opinion you belong to the third category. This is for non-management position of course. The only occupation that can make you filthy rich in Indo is entrepreneur, provided you don't earn expat salary. What did I say again? Yeah no middle class.

I think I write enough, yeah. so that would be it.

Looking forward to Cote d'Azur and Spain!

Leverage!

2010-05-21T07:49:00.001-07:00

OMG, I've been tooo slack with my start-up recently.
Have really start to talk to people, do more networking to get funding and more feedbacks.

Will meet with an outsourcing company next week who's potentially will build our product. Or if that fails, then I have no choice but to use freelancer. July is just too long and I might have lose my motivation by then.

SO my target...by summer, our product prototype must have been out already. then in August. start marketing crazizly!

Summer Trip

2010-05-21T02:30:00.000-07:00

Just booked tickets for my summer trip June-July.
Here's the first itinerary

24 June : 9pm, fly to London
25-26 June : London : Wimbledon, Financial district, London summer sale
27 June : 6am, fly to Pisa, transfer to Florence, Florence sightseeing, go to Viareggio at night
28-30 June : Viareggio, entrepreneurship conference
1 Apr : transfer to Pisa, Pisa sightseeing, fly to Amsterdam 2pm, Amsterdam sighseeing
2-3 Apr : Amsterdam sightseeing with Alda
4 Apr : Amsterdam sightseeing, 9pm fly to Nice
5-7 Apr : Nice, Monaco, Cannes
8 Apr : 8am, fly to Paris, Paris shopping
9 Apr :4pm, fly to Ibiza, Ibiza sightseeing
10-11 Apr : Ibiza party
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after Ibiza, actually I plan to go to Madrid, Pamplona and Barcelona. lets see whether I still have the funds and energy to do so or not, if not then just go back to Stockholm, rest a bit then fly again :)

Europe Wishlist

2010-05-11T00:54:00.001-07:00

While I'm in Europe, I wanna do these:
1. See Bull Race festival in Pamplona
2. Partying at Ibiza
3. Watch tennis grand slam, either in Paris (French Open) or London (Wimbledon)
4. Going for termal spa in Budapest
5. Skiing in Swiss Alps
6. Snorkeling or jet-skiing in Gibraltar
7. Iceland hot springs (but considering the ash...hmmm)
8. Try Monaco casino
9. Participate in La Tomatina festival in Valencia
10. Enjoy Paris summer sale!
11. Go to Europe top financial district : London, Frankfurt and Zurich (paris done)
12. Island hopping in Greece
13. Kayaking in Elafiti Islands, near Dubrovnik, Croatia
14. Bungee jumping at Europabrücke Bridge, Austria
15. Skydiving (anywhere in Europe)

And exotic places to visit:
1. Morocco (though it's not europe, but no visa required there :)
2. Canary Island (more beaches)
3. Sarajevo (wanna know how ppl there, after the wars)
4. Malta (real Mediterranean country!)

And of course, the "must-visit" places to prove you've been in Europe, which are more boring and tourisy..
1. Berlin
2. Copenhagen
3. Brussels
4. Prague
5. Hamburg
6. Munich
7. Amsterdam

will update again

5 words

2010-05-07T12:11:00.000-07:00

i miss him so much

wherever i go i always wish he was there too
i'm idiot
i hate this side of me
if only those never happened..

2 roads

2010-04-25T10:33:00.000-07:00

I have one goal.

But there are 2 common ways to get there.

One is easy to enter but hard to go on. It is exciting but not guarantee achievements. Many give up, many more never make it to the end. Hard work and extreme luck are the key of success.

Another is extremely hard to enter. Some people may find it boring, some people desperately try anything to get there. Hard work is definitely required, but the results may be guaranteed.

Which road should I take? I'm so confused now. Previously I've made my mind for the second road. But because of the exposure that I have now, which seems to push me to the first road, I'm confused again.

April Update

2010-04-24T12:49:00.000-07:00

April has been a crazy month for me. A lot of things going on, everything's going very fast and no more boredom :D

Feels like learning a lot this month. Now I'm finally relieved that myself being in Stockholm worth the time.

1. April starts off with Easter trip in which a great dosage of fun and unique experiences involved haha.
2. Some dinner meetings with Johannes and Maisy for cca projects.
3. Another ski trip with Carmen haha. I dont feel like improving my techniques though, just that I can go 10 mins faster down the slope. Anyway ski is super fun!
4. Planning class starts, so every Monday and Wednesday at least I have something to do haha
5. Rediscover my passion for movie haha. Been watching 3 movies this month : clash of titans, remember me, ghost writer
6. Electronic exhibition with InView. first time representing the company. quite boring though
7. Traders trophy..went to final, but didnt win. But met some great student traders though and lunched with Oxyor CEO (ok, i didnt know he was the CEO that time, only after he gave namecard...)
8. STOCKHOLM STARTUP WEEKEND. been the greatest startup events that I went to. basically it's like 54hours business camp. In 54 hours we need to come up with business plan and product prototype. Met tons of great people here, from developer, investors etc etc.
My team idea (Annika and me) is a site called EventGoerz. We didnt get first place, but we managed to get a chance to pitch in Startup day :D
9. yeah from no.8, now i have another focus. been busy this week thinking whether we should really continue building this company or not. been planning a lot of stuff, brainstorming a lot
10. yeah of course in the most unwanted moment my work at InView get busier as well..why dont they make me this busy one month ago where I have nothing else to work on except travel plan?
11. get in touch with him again, after sooo looonggg...just lift my mood up for the whole day today :D
11. just went back from StartUp Day. been really great day. Made lots of contacts, talked to lots of people abt our idea and how we can improve it and so on. Networking feels much different if you have concrete idea on what you need and what you gonna do. I mean, in networking events before this, I was just there for the sake of being there and getting new contacts. But now you have totally different feeling cause somewhat you know why you're there! and also good thing is you can explain that you're doing something other than "oh, i'm exchange student from singapore, but i'm also interning with bla bla bla". conversation will evolve from there :D

yeah in conclusion i love this month. i like its fast pace, things keep changing and improving and getting more exciting.

biggest issue is whether I should continue working on EventGoerz, the startup that I co-founded, or not. I mean i dont think it's gonna work personally...not because of the idea is bad, just because Annika and me have totally different working styles. she's too slack from my view haha, but she has good contacts though...afterall she's been in sweden for years.

but if we keep this up, in the process I'm sure I'll learn a lot (it's just like totally applying what i learnt in class to real life...one word...amazing!), gain lots of first-hand experiences and make lots of contacts. It's gonna be a very good experience and I have nothing to lose anyway. most importantly, it's gonna be fun!

april hasnt ended yet. and next week gonna be crazier if everything's in my agenda comes true.
1. going to venture cup final
2. fnishing up planning assignment
3. going to excitera innovation challenge final
4. attend globe forum, biggest innovation conference...u know...more and more interesting ppl coming
5. dinner+party with best...been a long time i wanna go cafe opera!
6. ROME!

hopefully everything goes as planned :D
i like it when everything's going very fast...like 24 hours is not enough for u...been quite sometime i didnt feel that way, but now yeah...it's here again :D
really need to learn and learn more things here.

Personality Type

2010-04-19T05:16:00.000-07:00

OK, not a lot of work, keep blogging.
Have been taking different personality tests, but the result mainly either ENTP/ENFP/ESTP. Will comment shortly

Results:
ENTP - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

risk taker : yeah kind of, the thing that i hate most is boredom. risk is much better
easy going, outgoing, social : sometimes, depends on mood. but most of the time thats the case i guess
open : haha not at all. only a few ppl know what i'm really feeling
rule breaker, thrill seeker : haha SO ME!
life of the party : not really
comfortable in unfamiliar situations : yeah kind of. manage to settle and adapt everywhere
appreciates strangeness : yeah, for fun...not for serious stuff
disorganized : yeah, my room is in a mess everytime
adventurous : YEAH!
talented at presentation : NO! i'm lousy at pres seriously
aggressive : i think so
attention seeking : yeah most of the time
experience junky, insensitive : maybe...haha
adaptable : yeah can manage to survive even in jungle/desert i think (i should try that!)
not easily offended : haha unfortunately not. am easily offended just that I dont give a shit abt it
messy, carefree : YEAH! who wants to waste time to tidy up ur room when u can hv fun outside!
dangerous : i'm not lion
fearless, careless : YEAH
emotionally stable : oops no. I'm super moody
spontaneous, improviser : yeah. no plan always works better!
always joking, player : hmmm...not sure
wild and crazy, dominant : hmm...sometimes? depends with whom
acts without thinking : yeah, most of the time..and have to reap the consequences lolz
not into organized religion : no. i'm moslem :D and i believe it's organized..
pro-weed legalization : i dont care

ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

outgoing, social : sometime
disorganized : most of the time
easily talked into doing silly things : sometime, depends on mood
spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking : YEAH
good at getting people to have fun : sometime
pleasure seeking : YEAH, who doesnt?
irresponsible : yeah sometime/
physically affectionate : ??
risk taker, thrill seeker : YEAH
likely to have or want a tattoo: NO
adventurous : YEAH
unprepared : sometimes, dpends on degree of importance
attention seeking, hyperactive : sometimes
irrational : no...i'm quite rational i think
loves crowds : depends on mood
rule breaker, prone to losing things: YEAH...like totally
seductive : err
easily distracted, open, revealing : No. I'm super focused, and kinda closed i guess
comfortable in unfamiliar situations : yeah, see above
attracted to strange things: yeah see above
non punctual : YEAH...which indo is punctual?
likes to stand out, likes to try new things : YEAH. 2nd thing I hate : ordinariness.
fun seeker, unconventional : yeah
energetic, impulsive, empathetic : totally!
dangerous, loving : u cant combine this tgether (lazy to hit the enter button)
attachment prone, prone to fantasy : hmm

ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

content : what the hell is this
emotionally stable : no
outgoing, social, group oriented : depends on mood
finisher : yeah like totally! i cant leave things uncompleted
does not like to be alone : come on, who does?
open : no.
decisive : yeah. see fnisher.
likes external praise, likes to be center of attention : yeah, who doesnt?
frequently joking, adjusts easily : depends on mood
likes crowds : dpends on mood
self confident : yeah. u're not gonna make it in life if u dont believe in urself, idiot.
neutral moods : NO! I am super moody!
good at getting people to have fun: sometimes. just realize that i'm good at getting ppl into some unexpected events in a seemingly normal situation, which they like :D
disorganized, messy : TOTALLY
talented at presentation, : no. unfortunately :(
not easily annoyed : see above
does not like to be alone : who does?
enjoys crude jokes : sometime
likes to lead : like to be in control maybe, not lead
likes sports : yeah
more likely to come off as masculine : haha ironically a big yes..
risk taker : yeah
tends to dominate conversations :dpends on the other persons
fearless : sometimes
can handle criticism : yeah
hard to discourage : yeah. once i want sth..hard to stop haha

E and P seems always there. But I'm not sure abt the E though. Yeah I love meeting people because they're not boring and always bring me something new. But sometimes I prefer to take a walk in my own. Depends on mood like I always said.

P yeah..kinda not sure what it means though.

N and T comes 2 out of 3. N=intuition. Yeah, I really act based on my intuition.
T : thinking, sometimes......but truthfully I'm more a rational person rather than a person who act based on feeling (feeling here != intuition...feeling here is more like they always think about others first, try not to offend them).

So the conclusion, I'm still confused with my self lolz.

50 random question

2010-04-19T04:39:00.000-07:00

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
at work
2. Who are you in love with?
someone
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
no
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
dunno and dont care
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
last sunday, just pass by when it's still closed, if u meant shopping then when i was in paris.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
yes
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
dont hv car
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
cant drive. out of town last week for ski
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
yes. clahs of titans!
10. Are you hot?
i am keren.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water
12. What are you wearing right now?
jeans+shirt (doh, engineers clothes..prefer suit much more haha)
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
dont hv car
14. Last food that you ate?
a ready-made frozen food...dont know the menu's name
15. Where were you last week at this time?
work..its monday
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
no. i lost my shopping appetite here (stockholm)
17. When is the last time you ran?
last night. half running back home
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
live : ice hockey match in january lolz
19. What is your favorite animal?
eagle!
20. Your dream vacation?
Ibiza parties + beaches
21. Last person's house you were in?
Jan's place in Bergen 2 wks ago
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
dunno
23. Have you been in love?
yes
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
yes
25. Last play you saw?
dont remember
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
listening
27. What are your plans for tonight?
lecture T_T
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
dont hve
29. Next trip you are going to take?
Rome. If it's not canceled bcause of stupid ash
30. Ever go to camp?
yeah, startup camp yesterday
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
yeah, long time ago
32. What do you want to know about the future?
stock mkt trend (haha sorry, still influenced by traderstrophy 2 days ago)
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
no
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
no
35. Where is your best friend?
sg+indo
36. How is your best friend?
theyr fine, thank u.
37. Do you have a tan?
no. 3 hours sunlight can help
38. What are you listening to right now?
nothing
39. Do you collect anything?
poker cards!
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
mama lawer
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
in a mall in jakarta, my friend forgot to bring driving license
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yes, why not?
43. What does your last text message say?
i'm online
44. Do you like hot sauce?
yes
45. Last time you took a shower?
this morning.
46. Do you need to do laundry?
yeah and i really hate it!
47. What is your heritage?
keren family
48. Are you someone's best friend?
hopefuly
49. Are you rich?
soon to be. amin.
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
get high after camp

Easter Holiday Summary

2010-04-06T01:35:00.000-07:00

Summary of what I've done during the Great Easter Trip!

Bergamo :
-arrive at 12am
-sleep at airport (on the floor!)
-took train to Venice via Brescia

Brescia :
-walk around for 1.5hours in brescia
-found credit suisse office here (doh) haha
-continue train journey to venice

Venice :
-after 3-hour train journey, arrive at venice
-walk around venice, still carrying my whole backpack there
-took the vaporetto to get around venice
-visited St.marco cathedral, went to the museum and roof
-visited grand canal and that famous rialto
-1 hour bfore my train to milan, took vaporetto to a quite far island of venice, almost missed my train but luckily get back on time
-took a lot of great pictures in venice! lovely city!

Milan :
-meet up with Sandro, was brought to dinner to one of the posh area in Milan, Brera. nice tiramisu!
-networked with 4 Bocconians (2 alumni and 2 finance and marketing undergraduate), 1 NUS alumni (can u believe i met her in Milan?!), 1 trader. Haha good networking experience
-club at Milan. yeah baby, my first clubbing experience in europe was in milan, capital of nightlife haha! went to Just Cavalli, supposedly the most famous club in Milan (at least it's at travel guide book everywhere)
-didnt sleep at all that night
-plan to catch a train to go skydiving but was late. dont want to catch the next train as it's quite late
-continue sleeping until 2pm
-went to duomo! it's a perfect day that day with sun and 24 degree! love milan!
-went to castle
-stroll around milan city centre
-dinner at chinese restaurant with the guys
-learn insights abt doing business in Italy, esp private equity from Sandro. learnt a lot from him :D
-shop at Milan's Orchard Road (forgot the name of the street, was it Venice?), bought nice bags and sandals at Zara for EUR6.9 bcause the cashier gave me wrong change....where it's supposed to be EUR36.9
-took a bus tour around milan bcause my feet could no longer bear the pain T_T
-go to bergamo 5 hours bfore my flight to paris

Bergamo :
-took a short bus trip to Bergamo city centre and top hill. Nice view. Should spend more time there next time I visit it again (soon)
-fly to Paris

Paris :
-arrive at midnight, a bit scared in the metro because a lot of black people and it's midniht
-couldnt use the metro ticket so at the end i just jump over the gate to enter the station
-first day take a bus tour around paris. pass thru trocadero, eiffel tower, champs elysses, invalides, arc d triomphe and many other touristic sites. planned to go up eiffel tower but too crowded so decided to give it a pass that day.
-went to la defense, the modern part of paris.
-watch movies (shutter island) at la defense
-go to bar near Pantheon to meet up with Magali's friend = Gauthier and Chloe
-climb up the stairs of eiffel tower (i bought the wrong ticket which does not include elevator..so must use STAIRS to climb...oh my feet)
-had nice lunch with view at eiffel tower (cost me damn EUR20.5)..but anyway...
-went to Louvre, spend some hours there, disappointed with small Monalisa, I expected it to be much larger
-went along the Seine banks, so nice!
-went to Montmarte, almost cried T_T cause remember of one movie
-took random bus to get around Paris
-went to Versailles, successfully sneak in without paying hahaha but it was raining outside so didnt go to the park T_T
-went clubbing at Mix Club, Mont Parnasse. Seriously Paris club lives up to its name!! Had a lot of fun there! Magali, Chloe and Jennie totally rocked my night!
-went back from club at 3am, must walk to go back to where I stayed (which is near Eiffel tower)...so I went to eiffel tower at 3am hahaha, Paris at night quite scary though, not a lot of people..
-the last day, have dinner with Yejin and her friends at French bar, eat cheese (yes CHEESE) for dinner...arghh..and it's quite expensive
-took the first train to go to Beauvais airport to catch my flight to Oslo

Oslo :
-met up with Sara and Mbak Yuli, Mbak Yuli brought us around Oslo
-visit the famous garden (forgot its name) where there are a lot of nude sculptures
-visit the ski place, didnt ski though
-had dinner at mbak yuli's place! Indo food at last! after like 4 months!
-prepare for our most adventurous trip to Bergen
-took night bus to Sogndal

Sogndal :
-Sogndal is a small city near to Sognefjord. the reason I went there is to see the norway fjords! but that town is totally closed because of easter! nothing is opened, no one is around seriously!
-arrive at 5am, freezing...took a shelter at a hotel lobby
-brush teeth and wash face at deserted public toilet near the ports
-walk around the city only to figure out that NO ONE is around (until like 10am)
-back to our camp (a waiting room near the port) to have snack and prepare for hitchhike
-hitchhike to Balestrand (another small town near Fjord)...this is amazing, at first we thought that we gonna need at least an hour to get hitchhiked but it turned out we only need 5 mins...it's like the 5th car that we tried and they stopped! so lucky! we havent even stopped laughing (because hitchhiking is quite embarassing, everyone look at you, pointing at you, without stopping their cars haha, but it's so fun! we laugh bact at them hahaha). We hitchhiked the car of a Norwegian couple Leif and Katherine, apparently Leif is an artist who sells paintings about the Fjord to tourist. They're very nice! So lucky

Balestrand :
-enjoy the great view of Sognefjord! Seriously Norway Fjord is amazing!!
-walked around the small town to port
-need to wait around 3 hours for the ferry to bergen but NOTHING is open and it's freezing outside! We took a shelter, sitting in front of closed grocery shop on the floor with newspaper, just like homeless people.
-2 american backpackers (Evans and Patrick) came over, apparently they were also waiting for the ferry. yeah made new friends again :D
-took the ferry to Bergen! The view from the ferry is amazing!!! I really love Norway fjords! But everyone says it'll be more beautiful during summer,damn it!!

Bergen :
-arrive at bergen, had dinner, met up with Jan, sleep
-Jan brought us to see around Bergen, small but a lovely city
-visited small viking church and Bryggen, one of UNESCO world heritage sites
-hiked one mountain in Bergen, great view from the top!
-go home to Stockholm T_T

This trip is really a great experience for me. Other than visiting new places, I also met a lot of new people and had great time with them. In total visited 9 places (yeah some only for a few hours) and met around 30 new people I guess. Spend quite much though...around 7000sek incuding everything..but anyway, this is much better rather than sitting in front of the computer in the office..

Ah...cant wait for my next trip to Rome in May (but it's only for 4 days)

@louvre

2010-03-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

i'm at mcdonald louvre museum, paris now. I'm so tired today. Been walking a lot, my feet are at their limit, so since i found wireless i decided to blog abt my travel so far.

Venice was great! Every corner of the city deserve a picture. And the weather are great when i was there. Will be much better if i didnt go there alone...

Milan was beyond my expectation. First nite there,, sandro brought me to meet his friends, some guys from uni of bocconi, es that bocconi and an NUS alumni?' gaha, cant believe i can still meet nus gals even in milan. Aftr that we go club at the most popular club in town, just cavalli, owned by THAT cavalli. That nite i didnt sleep at all. Damn tired but it was super fun haha. Networked a lot at least.

Next da i went alone to go arnd milan. Seriously, milan is not so good for tourist, thee's not much thing to see there except duomo haha. But milan was unforgettable coz sandro told me a lot of thing abt business in italy, and some insight abt life as a private eqt analyst. Learnt a lot!

Now i'm in paris. Been wandering arnd the city as well. Still got a lot things i havent visited. Hopefully can cover it all bfore i head to oslo

skavsta and ryanair

2010-03-26T10:07:00.000-07:00

i still have 2 hours to go bfore my flight, so i think i should do smth. I checkd all my emails, fb, twitter etc and i got bored, so yeah, maybe blogging a good choice.

I'll write abt ryanair i think, haha not a so good topic but i dunno what else i could blog abt. Ryanair is a very popular budget airline in europe. their flight is damn cheap...yeah maybe not during weekend and holiday but wel...For example my 3 tix cost me arnd 100eur, a pretty good price for peak season like this .

Hmm. Blogging using my handphone is not so good...cnt see the fulls screen, but nyway..

Im still 2 hours away from my flight...wondering why i arrive soe earley zzz. Bttw, i juz boiught a pretty good travel guide book of europe. My mission is, by the end of this yr, i must have visited at least 75% of countries listed there haha. First trip gonna be italy, france and norway.

I juz realize that im gonna visit italy at least 3 times, one is now, 2nd is for atp rome nt month and for my summer sch in july hahaa. I think i'm really attracted to exotic south europe such as italy and spain...hua wanna go spain soon!

Haha, come to think of it, maybe for the nxt 1 yr this blog gonna transform to a travel blog lol..

What should i do now...still got 2 hours, still... Hahah it's very annoying to get bored like this. Actually i have the guide book in front of me now, but too lazy to read, maybe later at the plane

Its getting dark here. And theres a good looking waitress at where i'm eating now. Yeah, i'm wondering why all waitress here are good looking. Even at mcdonalds...not fair haha? Back in sg wee got aunty2@ mcd but here got pretty blond guy/gals.

And i miss starbux... Last reading week i almost go orchard strbux everydaay ti study, well yeah, waste of money but i really cant stand the nus environment any longer at that time. I need fresh air and new enviro, so yeah orchard will be the most convenient. If there's not that 1 shitty programming module, i'll be able to pull up my cap. Wtf. I really hate programming, it's like what the hell should i learn programming. I'm very sure i dont want to do it in the future. No way. Say no to programming!

But yeah, i just realiz that in this yr, i think starting from my last summer, i changed a lot. I now know what i wanna do in the future. I sstill remember clearly when suang ask me what is my future plan and i said i didnt know, when we were in first yr...even in my 2nd yr i still dunno..i thought it gonna be enuf if i just do well on my study, i eventually found it. But its not enuf of cors...although its qt late, but i fgure out what i wanna do, what is my strenght and all. I now understand more of myself ever than bfore, whic is a good thing.

One friend once said that ppl nowadays are too focused on actions that they stopped thinking. . It's true for my case...bfore i was too focused on having fun and htackling challenge that i nvr take time to instrospect myself.

Thanks to slack semester last autumn, and hours of htht with ivone and suang, i bcome more aware of my surroundings, incl myself. U can say that i bcome more mature, no? Well, at least i bcome more sensible on consequences of my actions...and human relationship. Bfore that i nvr really think abt it. I alwys take relattionship for granted, maybe bcoz i always had good friends, normal friends who have straight lives since i was child...

After i go abroad, esp here, i met a lot of interesting ppl whose life are totally different from mine. Which made me realize that there are really a LOT of ways to live ur life, not always to bcome the best of all, not always to achieve sth.

But thats how i grew up. I get bored so easily and i always need challenge to stimulate me. I live on challenges. If there's no challenge i'll be damn bored and not feeling, u know, alive, like what i'm feeling right now T_T...

Hopefully this trip could bring back my energy. Thats why i didnt choos easy trip (fly, sleep at
hotel, sightseeing), but i choose to sleep at airport, get to know the local ppl and all. Meeting new ppl always excites me really. They're so different and there's always sth to learn from how they live their life...

I love being in europe in that sense. The ppl here are so different..lets see how italian and french and norwegian bhave haha..

Still 1 hour plus to my flight, sigh, but i think i've written enuf

Random Feeling

2010-03-25T02:23:00.001-07:00

I just feel that I don't really make the full use of my NOC opportunity here. Other than working and taking classes, I don't really do anything else. Well yeah, I did go to some networking events and all that, but don't feeling like I have accomplished something. There's no visible result so far..

I hate it because it makes me feel so useless. But there's nothing much I can do really, not a lot of things going on here in Stockholm (like competitions, events and all that), everything takes place in the damn Silicon Valley. And even if there's some interesting events going on, it'll be in Swedish! Hate it hate it!

Need more opportunities to try my luck once more and prove I can achieve something.

*and seeing my friends' facebook in SV/BV really made me envious T_T

Trip Updates

2010-03-19T14:14:00.000-07:00

I made some changes to my itinerary for Easter...

On 27 Mar I'm gonna have a day trip to Venice. Yeah Venice! Took a 2-hr train from Bergamo to Venice, then Venice to Milan in the afternoon. This gonna be fun yeah!
And from Oslo I'll not heading back directly to Stockholm, but instead going to...Bergen! I'm so tempted with the Fjords that I cant help it! Me and Sara would take bus from Oslo to Sogndal, see the fjords there and take the ferry to Bergen. This gonna be awesome. Amin!

Now planning my itinerary in Paris. I'm gonna spend 4 days there but I still dunno what I'm gonna do. Well, first day confirm go to Disneyland, second day doing tourisy stuff, third day maybe have a short trip to Versailles. Let's see!

Yeah baby yeah. I'm super excited now! Less than a week I'm gonna start this adventure. Better be prepared.

Btw, I plan to visit 8 UNESCO World Heritage List below:
1. Venice (the whole city is apparently on the list)
2. St.Maria delle Grazie + Last Supper, Milan
3. Versailles, Paris
4. Notre Dame, Paris
5. Palace of Fontaine Bleau, South Paris
6. Bank of Seine, Paris
7. Naeroyfjord, Norway
8. Bryggen, Bergen

My mission : 5 city, 8 UNESCO World Heritage Sites, 10 days

Where is he?

2010-03-11T10:39:00.000-08:00

I dont know whether it's good or bad. But lately I never thought about him anymore. Guess I start to forget him?

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone...
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

This quote, I don't know whether it's true. For me, yeah it takes a very short time to crush on someone (matter of days). But it's not true that it takes only a day to love someone. I took months or even years before I realize...And it's not true that it takes forever to forget someone, because, luckily I started to forget him, and prepare for the next stage of my life.

Yeah, I own back my life now...(should I be happy?)

Next Adventure - Easter Trip

2010-03-11T09:53:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I booked all tickets for my Easter trip. It's the first trip I'm gonna do mini backpacking.
So here goes my itinerary :

26 Mar : fly to Bergamo, Milan
I'll arrive at 12am and I realize it'll be quite disturbing if I come to my host's house, Sandro Diazzi, at that time. So I'm still contemplating whether I should stayover at Bergamo airport or just take night train to Milan and go to his place. Hmm...after all staying over at airport would be adventure in itself, but it's quite dangerous (same goes with taking night train to Milan. I heard that Milan train station is not so safe at night, so yeah, let's see)

27 Mar : tour around Milan
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do in Milan on Saturday. Maybe doing some tourisy stuff like visiting Duomo, some museums, Milan stock exchange. Hopefully could go clubbing at night. Well, Milan is also famous for its nightlife other than its fashion :D

28 Mar : Skydive
I planned to go skydiving with Ramesh on Sunday at Casale Monferrato. Hopefully we can make it. I'm really looking forward to my first skydiving experience!
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do after Skydive, but I have 2 options : going back to Milan and watch ACMilan vs Lazio live at San Siro stadium or just touring the Casale city.

29 Mar : tour around Milan, flight to Paris
Last day at Milan. Not sure what I'll be doing. Maybe do some window shopping and visit some other popular spots
Fly to Paris at night. Arrive around 10pm, going to my Paris host's place, Magali Barot, to sleep and prepare for exciting Parisian tour the next day!

30 Mar : Disneyland Paris
I want to go to Disneyland as soon as possible to avoid the Easter crowd. So yeah. Hopefully I could enjoy it! Maybe going for a coffee or drink at night with Magali

31 Mar : tour around city
Doing some tourisy stuff again : Eiffel, Louvre, Notredam, Arc d Triomphe, La Defense
Move to Yejin's place at night :D

1 Apr : tour around city
David told me that you won't get enough Paris even for one week. So yeah I'll do another round of tourisy stuff. Versailles Palace, Paris stock exchange and other museums. Club at night?

2 Apr : tour around city
See above. another round of Paris touring!

3 Apr : fly to Oslo. Oslo city-tour!
Say goodbye to Paris. Catch flight to Oslo.
I haven't found my host yet in Oslo. worst case I need to sleep at hostel, but it's only 1 night after all, shouldn't be that expensive. So yeah, let's see.

4 Apr : another Oslo city tour. night train back to Stockholm
One day confirm not enough for touring a city. So here I am, another round of Oslo touring.
At night I'll be taking train back to Stockholm

5 Apr : an off day.
After traveling the whole week. I'm sure I must be very tired so I reserve a total day off before going back to work the next day.

Hopefully this trip will be very memorable and I could meet a lot of people along the way.

Relief

2010-03-08T09:54:00.000-08:00

*refer to my latest post (just after this post)

One week can change everything.

One week ago I felt so useless being here. Not being productive and all.

But 2 strangers came to my rescue. They are couchsurfers who surf at my place. David, a Mexican-American came on Sunday-Tuesday while Yoko, a Japanese came Friday-Sunday.

My last week had been meaningful for me. I mentioned that I miss heart-to-heart and philosophical sharing session with Suang and Ivone, well I got it from them, 2 strangers who just happened to come to my place.

David shared a lot of things about his life to me. His own unique way to live life freely. It was very interesting, and inspiring. With Yoko it's me who talk how I live my life and how I ended up in this state now haha

They were good. and they opened my eyes that opportunity for learning is everywhere. Europe is indeed a very good place to learn (and travel)

Fear

2010-03-04T01:30:00.000-08:00

I am scared.

What the hell I'm doing here in Stockholm? Everyday just do work and do technical stuff, and go to lecture learn technical stuff. Get restrained by the super strict program coordinator. Not going to any useful events.

While my friend back in Singapore got 7+ interviews for summer! Goldman Sachs, JP Morgan, RBS, Bain&Co, Accenture to name a few. They're top firms you know.

And what the hell I'm doing here. Play skating every week. Talking about nonsense every lunch.

I am scared. I don't like losing out to my peers...

Adolescence

2010-03-03T02:49:00.000-08:00

The adolescence that I'm talking about here is more about the searching for identity, that is. Well, I think I just began to grow up mentally last summer, when I interned at CS. Seriously, that simple internship changed my life forever. I started to learn about the importance of many intangible values like trust, friendship, leadership and all that. Previously I heck care about all those things, you know, I only care about fun and interesting things that would keep me out of boredom. I hate philosophy back then, after all I've been always an action-oriented person so I don't really want to 'think' to deep.

But really, from then on I enjoy human interaction and sharing session more than anything. I'd love to have a cup of coffee or dinner with someone and try to 'dig up' their experiences and thoughts. I became more sensible to my surroundings. Well yeah, I'm still selfish but I am no longer ignorant.

Yeah, up until now I'm still searching for my true self. Well, searching is not a right word...perhaps 'forming'? My true self if not out there, it's something that I must create myself.

Anyway, I just meet this stranger, a Mexican who's stayed at Texas but now teaching in Slovakia. He's very interesting and only in 3 days I learnt a lot from him. Well I told you, I receive knowledge more easily from the people who is enthusiastic about what they talked about (like American and Indian). His experience itself taught me that there are various things to live your life meaningfully. Everything is not about money and power. He used to think that way, he was business student after all. But well yeah, I don't know the real reason but he ditched all of that and became an English teacher at Slovakia.

Go the road less traveled or so people say. It's hard for a very business-minded and capitalist like me to think that the other way of life worth living. I'm very used to talk about everything in term of money, if not power and influence. Well, if you read Forbes often, you have no choice but to wonder how the people make it to the list and you started having ambition to be there as well someday...

But yeah, I guess my mind has changed a bit, thanks to his conspiracy theories and all that. I wish I could take another gap year to really go the road less traveled, before I really choose which way I wanna go

Irritating Person

2010-02-27T11:55:00.000-08:00

There is this most irritating person that I've ever dealt with. Well let's say he's called A. A is a super structured person, everything must be organized, must be well-planned, must be well-thought etc. And very strict as well.

What's most irritating is that he tried to impose his thought process and behaviour to everybody around him. He tried to create rules, even ridiculous ones, hardly allow creativity and impulsive behaviour to happen. Even tried to tell us how and where to walk. Wtf. We're not kindergarten children hellooo?

And he always stick to his initial assumption, about his perception of a person even though he knows nothing about the rationale behind.

I just cant follow his thought of process, really, from the start until now. I am a really impulsive person. I change plan and adapt along the way. Anything that I feel and want at one point of time, I'll do it right away and I expect to get the results instantly. And of course, more than often, I have my own way to get things done, which is not through what he perceived as "normal" way. It's not that I'm not respecting you or something, but me and you cant really get along well because we are so different right from the start. I was raised in a family who literally give me freedom to do whatever I want, and truthfully, more often than not, I get what I want, partly because I'm damn stubborn.

I don't know how you were raised, because our age differences are so huge, but I assume that it must be quite structured and full of rules/plan/schedules etc? Maybe at some point of time in your life you felt so restrained about your own environment and plan to get revenge in the future, thus try to apply the same thing to us now.

If I were your daughter, I think now I wouldn't be in Stockholm, rather I'll be in Jakarta, reading medical book on weekends, studying medicine. Having no social life like you.

But seriously I can't live in that kind of world. I feel restrained. I can't truly maximize my, what you called, 'talent' if you ALWAYS try to get in my way! Seriously get the hell out of my way! Let me do whatever I want. I am mature. I know what consequences I'll get for an action. And even if it's bad consequences, I'm the one who'll get it anyway and it won't affect you and your dear reputation at all. So just stay away from my business.

You know what? You're really worth nothing in my life and soon as this is over, I seriously dont want to have any kind of business/interaction etc with you. During that short period of time, when you feel like you were helping/guiding me, you actually bring me more troubles with all those stupid rules/guidelines. I'd rather try and experience things myself rather than receiving stupid and too careful suggestion.

It's very unfortunate that I have to deal with him in a frequent basis, though not everyday (thankfully or I'd rather go some other countries).

I'll post this on my blog. Don't care if you happen to read it. I am as free spirited as I was before, no one can change that, even after you bring some little troubles in my life.

Things I wanna do in University

2010-02-09T07:29:00.000-08:00

Haha I still have 2-2.5 years before my graduation, but I'll put wishlist here so that I could remember what I wanna achieve. Some are serious, some are just for fun (the list are randomly ordered)

1. Master some basic ice hockey technique and show them off at Sky Rink. You know, some basic stuff like cross-over, fast break and go backward. I've got my new Bauer Vapor and I wanna learn much moree hockey techniques

2. Find a career mentor. I seriously and desperately need a mentor! One that could guide me to be successful, preferably someone like Gita Wirjawan or Sandiago Uno (haha dreaming). Or at least someone who is experienced in the field that I'm interested in.

3. Make tons tons tons of contacts from everywhere.

4. Be involved in real M&A transaction(well, I've been an analyst for a sell-side acquisition before, but would like to know more about the nitty gritty of the deal itself, not just some financial modeling).

5. To achieve no.4, that means I must get internship related to finance (read: investment banking or private equity, no back-office/middle-office, even sales and trading is not included)

6. Found my own club in NUS. Get the idea after attending CinemaPolitica film screening in Stockholm. It's an organization that support freedom of speech and human right. Not really my thing, but could be fun as well :D

7. Interning at Papa's office. I'd like to know more about how he founded, run and maintain the business. Would like to also explore other opportunities to expand it. Hopefully like Wiwi, my sister, said, we could create a big empire in second generation. Amin. :D

8. Find good candidate for marriage haha

9. Find good partner in business with charisma and wide networks.

10. Do something charitable in Indonesia remote village and/or Africa, feels like simple life could be beneficial for mental growth sometimes. Will be good learning experience.

11. Visit Wall Street and New York

12. Try some classic painting class haha

OK, will update this list later when I got inspiration

Dont forget me

2010-02-04T00:09:00.000-08:00

I don't know why I became melancholic like this.
But please don't forget me even if I'm far away, I'll be back.
Because I won't forget you....I tried but I couldn't.

Stockholm and me

2010-01-29T14:00:00.000-08:00

It's been my 3rd week here in Stockholm, and my 2ndweek working at InView AB, a multimedia startup company. Unlike my expectation of NOC, life's been so slack these days. Basically go to work, go lecture sometimes, go home. Slack in the sense that I havent been required to work overnight (which I did a lot during my last summer interning @CS, coupled with 3 running CCAs).

Honestly, I dont really enjoy the situation. I prefer to get myself busy all the time because that way I feel I learn and do a lot. Here in Stockholm, I havent felt the same excitement as I had when meeting CS directors or even when I had sharing session with Suang and Ivone. Strange. I'm just scared that in no time I'll be used to this kind of slack life and lose my strive. Lose my passion to learn. Lose my motivation to excel. I. need. stimulation. and I'm being dead serious here.

After coming here, I've thought a lot that NCST doesnt suit me, as in the environment and culture here.

1. Typical swedes (or ppl say so) is relax, soft-spoken and you know, calm? whereas I kinda need people like Obama (who speaks with emotion + charismatic) to make me really listen to what they have to say. If like they're too soft spoken, Ill feel that they're not being passionate enough with what they are saying. I once read some articles that Swedes salesmen are scared of their customer? (read somewhere in ppl's blog)...hmm...I need people with more motivation to talk here...

2. Sweden is research and technology based country. Truth is, it is so NOT me (at least until now). I dont care about any technology or research being done/published/whatsoever as long as they sell welll and make money. Seriously, I think this is considered wrong in the popular belief, but whatever, it's what I believe in. Many startups here are spin off from research product (as in they invented a product and then try to sell it, not the other way around. I find that's not a so good strategy...I'll wish to have a market demand bfore I enter, even if it's not innovative at all I dont care. Seriously, why being innovative but cant sell?) All money and all must have a return.

3. They believe in equality (aka socialist), which is again "good". I have a very capitalist view on my mind. Again I dont care about what other people have to say, it's just the real me and even myself cant force my mind to think other way. I dont believe that every people should live at same living standard and feed by government. I dont believe in economic equality. What I believe is whoever works hard will eventually get the return. Why you work so hard if eventually you'll get the same result as the rest? That was bullshit. I dont like being the same with others, I enjoy being unique, I enjoy being exclusive and I wanna enjoy what I've been working hard for.

And I cant stop wondering why they pay such higher tax! around 50%. I'm working my ass off just to give my half salary to government each month, ridiculous. I'm glad I'm Indonesian, at least I'm working for myself.

4. People here are too environmentally friendly. Again, this is not me. I prefer practicality over environment. I dont want to classify my trash before throwing them, I wish waitress clean my table and I want my heater to be turned on the whole day. So what if it's not environmentally friendly?

5. I enjoy busy and fulfilling life more than relaxed and balanced life. I'll prefer working at IB until 3am if I'm learning there rather than working for ministry office and facebooking all day.

6. I prefer to work at business district with skycraper building. I mean now I'm working at university building, sometimes it feels like not going to work but for class. (nb. and i do really enjoy dressing up as business woman)

I really feel being a trapped wolf among all the sheeps haha. I mean, if you read my post I'm like the evil (I'm result-oriented, capitalist and not so environmentally friendly, err...but I really DO care about world poverty, dun ask me why, I just care).

I dont mean to insult the Swedes or what. They're really nice people seriously, very friendly, sometimes too friendly. The problem is that I'm not that nice. And I dont apply for NOC to become nice person.

Bold what you own

2009-11-10T23:24:00.000-08:00

Nemu 'kerjaan' abis ngiter2 blog tmen gw...let's see

1.A cell phone. (yah walopun butut, ud 2 taun ga dganti)
2. A hair straightener. (only use twice/thrice..)
3.Your own computer. (isnt it a must?)
4. Your own car. (damn...i'll buy one for sure)
5.Chanel/Dior/Gucci sun[glasses].
6. A designer purse.
7. A boyfriend/girlfriend.
8. A curling iron.
9.Every Fall Out Boy CD.
10.Something from American Eagle.
11.Something from Hot Topic.
12.Something from Hollister.
13. Something from Abercrombie.
14. A pet.
15.Some type of trophy/award.
16. Full/Queen-size bed. (dorm sux, only give us single size)
17. King-size bed.
18. An iPod.
19.Something from a professional team.
20.Ever had more than £100 at a time. (iyalah haiz)
21. Monster, Full Throttle, Amp, Red Bull, etc. in your fridge.
22. Something Green Day.
23. Xanga.
24. Myspace.
25. Makeup.
26. A desk in your room.
27. A hill in your backyard. (I even got 'forest' sia)
28. DDR.
29. A pair of skis.
30. An alarm clock.
31. A pair of ice skates. (love my bauer :D)
32. Rollerblades.
33. A treadmill.
34. Your own phone line. (used to haha)
35. AIM.
36. Yahoo!
37. MSN.
38. ICQ.
39. AOL.
40. Perfume/cologne.
41. Bath lotion.
42. Necklaces and bracelets.
43. A journal/diary.
44. Yogurt and peaches in your fridge.
45. X’s in your screen name.
46. A birthday in September.
47. A famous relative.
48. A relative in a different state/province.
49. A disowned relative.
50. A relative that lives in Florida.
51. Your own bathroom.
52. Your own band.
53. Any rock band shirts.
54. A guitar. - eBaying, though.
55. A hammock.
56. A basketball hoop.
57. A soccer net.
58. A bike.
59. An electric scooter.
60. A minivan.
61. A V.C. Andrews book.
62.A friend that does drugs/alcohol/smokes. (only alcohol & smokes)
63. A locker at school.
64. A baby.
65. Sparkly blue nail polish.
66. A “Vote for Pedro” shirt.
67. The movie “40 Year Old Virgin”.
68. A promise ring.
69. A pool table.
70. A swimming pool/hot tub.
71. Trampoline.
72. Livejournal.
73. Flip flops.
74. Steve Madden shoes.
75. The Sims 3.
76. A ping pong table.
77. An air hockey table.
78. A basement.
79. Converses.
80. Construction paper.
81. Markers, crayons, etc..
82. Coloring books.
83. A nice singing voice.
84. GameCube.
85. Xbox.
86. Playstation.
87. PS2.
88. PSP.
89. Some type of disease. (mental one, like seriously :p)
90. Rose Red movie.
91.VCR/DVD player.
92.A mom or dad.
93. An older brother.
94.An older sister.
95. A younger brother.
96. A younger sister.
97. A twin
98. A sled.
99. A lake/pond/river/ocean near your house.
100. Friends who like you. (lets be optimistic)

haha now i realize i dont own a lot of things...what a simple life :)

Friends are Indeed Subset of Acquaintances

2009-10-03T02:15:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been complaining a lot about relationship matter. Not the kind of love relationship or normal friendship that may across your mind at first, it's more like the kind of 'friends' that are potential for business partners. What I complaint a lot lately is my lack of companionship when it comes to face challenges and try out new things. And the limit of my circle of friend in term of 'helping' me in future career.

I've been always thinking that my 'circle' of acquaintances are quite small, they're either from NUS indons, 8 alumni, NUSSU friends, course friends and Credit Suisse peeps. So in short, they're from my age (have not become 'somebody' yet, same as me) so in other words, though you can learn some, but not much....(as in in term of career experience, this post dedicated for my future career paths anyway). I envy Suang much in this case. She knows a lot of successful people who share a lot of their experiences with her and has good network in that sense. Me leh? Almost nobody except from my days in CS.

But then I realize...I know much more friends back in Indonesia, from high sch, mid schl etc. And a lot of them are activists, achievers-kind of type and have wide connections. Hmm...come to think of it, knowing people only from your age doesnt necessarily a disadvantage, it's how you take the chance and create some opportunity out of it. I believe a lot of them are driven individuals as well, who has passion for creating ideas and taking actions for better Indonesia as well.

I may sound like a very ambitious person, but then my drive is the only thing that differentiate me from the rest. So what I need to do is to catch up with them^^. Tap into an unpredictable but very potential circles. Yay. I'm so glad I still have them. From here I realize that everyone has equal opportunity in life, it just the successful person see it and turn it into their benefit while the rest didn't. Hopefully I can succeed in life..Amin..

Emo post

2009-10-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

Things have gone out of my control lately and hate these!

1. I never think that life without CCA would be this boring. simply dont have motivation to study...being idle for quite some times can turn off your motivation to do everything T_T, everyday just want to lazying around...very2 unproductive. I even dont care anymore about assignments and all

2. Realizing that all people targeting banking jobs are more qualified than me sigh...how should I compete with them how should I? Not that I feel inferior, but the fact that this year I'm letting go my chance of interning in FO of bulge brackets for NOC left me wondering whether this is a better choice...especially when the market has just rebounded and all jobs openings are mushrooming now...

3. And on top of those things, I cant find any corporate finance related start-ups in Stockholm....should I just give up and end up in some IT start-ups?...My biggest fear now is that I'll just travel miles miles away to Sweden just to do another programming task....zzz...really2 not worth it if that's the case. My true purpose is to improve my soft skills, widen my networks and improve my CV...then if I'm just spending the whole year sitting in fron of computer doing programming, what would be the point? shit..very afraid thinking of that possibility...

and another consequence of being idle and unproductive, my mind keep wandering around and without I realize I keep thinking about him. reading a lot of relationship articles and stuff, memorizing past moments etc...how come I could be that melancholic..come to think of it, it's just not me and I hope it will never be part of myself. but I know people change, him, me, everyone else etc. so there's no point hoping we could go back to the past. let him do whatever he wants, just never turn up in front of me again because I know I would keep remembering the pasts if I meet him...

another thing...I hate fake people who pretend to care about something just because everybody cares about it. Damn fake. Yes I know I'm selfish, I'm very selfish just because I mind my own business. At least I admit that I dont give a shit to other people's business unless they're somewhat special in my life.

Do people change or is it just me looking for totally different angle?

RAG DAY 2009! I'm loving it

2009-08-08T03:14:00.000-07:00

If I could choose the happiest moment since I entered NUS, today would be the day : NUSSU RAG 2009!

Rag day is a competition where 11 faculties and 6 halls in NUS come together and present float and performance. The day is so dynamic where people are damn high and tirelessly cheering for their faculties/halls.

I was in the NUSSU Rag Comm, the one who's organizing the day. Told you, these 4 days I've been literally live in school (YIH), doing all the preparation for Rag. It was tiring, but after seeing today's enthusiasm from everyone, I know it's all worth it!

You should see the face of winning PBs (participating bodies : halls/faculties) when the MC announce their names. OMG. They are so happy, shouting here and there. I was brought into the emotion as well. I tried my best to not cry. Seeing they all happy after all 3 months of hardwork building floats and preparing the performance is very amazing. The fact that I'm heavily involved in the judging process makes me even more excited.

Rag day is the best event of NUS! where no other spore university can copy our tradition! where every faculties and halls come together and tried their best! such big event, even by watching you can feel their spirit.

I am so happy today! I love Rag!

But I'm also sad. Because along with the end of the event, I cant longer be in the committee. Rag 2009 committee is the best exco that I entered. I love all the people. I love them!

I love rag!

Last Day @CS

2009-07-16T18:18:00.000-07:00

finally last day at CS..
less than one hour will have presentation...dunno why I'm so nervous. maybe bcoz I'm presenting to Angmohs who have perfect English..

Rabbi syahrill sodri wayasirli amri, wahluudatam ilisani yaf qaqauli...
"Ya Allah, lancarkanlah urusanku dan hilangkanlah kekakuan dari lidahku, agar mereka mengerti perkataanku. Amin"

After this presentation, I'll be damn relieved.........but it's 2 hour later...........now I'm damn nervous damn nervous...actually it's just normal presentation and nothing to be feared about. But just that....I dunno why I'm so scaredddd

I'll just leave this blog open, until I fnish my presentation. And see how it goes

OK. I'm counting down...now it's 9.24....means like abt 40 mins later it's gonna start...and the presentation itself will last around 20 mins, less Q&A session and other delay....so abt 1.5hr later I'll be freeeeeee. Then have to arrange my speech for afternoon presentation as well

Ok...I have just finished my presentation. Dunno why, but I'm so satisfied with it. Hoaaaa...seriously...dunno why but I really appreciate Mike, Tony, Forrest and Patrick for the moments. Seriously when I'm writing this, my eyes are tearing...thinking that after this I may not get a chance to see them again T_T

CS and ORQ are the perfect combination for my summer....
wish I could still be here a little longerrr...longerr....longerr.....
a lot of handsome people (and directors), great view from the building, sort of expat life (mainly coz my managers are all caucasians, lunch with them, follow their lifestyle lol). Seriously I'll not forget this moment. How I spent night at ORQ doing some sort of OT-ing. You got to know how does that feel. Very quiet. Very peaceful. and very relaxing.

And I'm sure that I'm gonna miss a lot of thing from this thing called short corporate life. Will miss the special scent of ORQ building. Will miss those Spinelli coffee in the morning. Will miss those Subway cookies as dinner. Will miss ORQ at night. Will miss taking 10 bus in the morning. Will miss wearing cool office attire (yes, I love my office attires lol). Will miss this computer and desk (I sit near the window which has great view of Raffles Place). and certainly will miss those Angmohs that I spent most of time with :)

Lalala~ I'm so relieved now. relieved and dont care what will happen later.

I got like 2 hours to spend before leaving for ORL. 30 mins bfore leaving for final presentation T_T *I'm still counting down to something coz practically I got no work left today..so for the last 30 minutes in this desk, I'll just crap around.

So sad that I cant meet Eddi again. He's on night shift, and only come after 3 while I'll be leaving at 2. Last night will be the last time I saw him during this internship program. But hopefully it won't take long time before I see him again (at least I could go ORQ for dinner or sth haha)

I've been waiting for this time (last day) when I was in the first few weeks of internship. But now when the time comes, I got mixed feeling. Relieved and happy since I got no responsibilities anymore. But at the same time, sad, because I'm already getting used to this life. I like working at Raffles Place, @ORQ specially, where you got the feeling of elitism :) haha, I know that I may sound quite arrogant, but it certainly how I felt.

Btw, I haven't prepared for my afternoon presentation. I'm just too worried about the morning's presentation. But since I got only 1 slide to present. I think it's OK. I've finished my Spinelli, gotta buy one more downstairs later. And I'm thinking to join fitness first. Just to be back to here again (and perhaps meeting him, I know he is gyming after work all this time )...haha i sound very obssessed with ORQ.

Last Night @ORQ

2009-07-16T04:34:00.000-07:00

Hm...this is the really last night.

What makes me scared is tomorrow. Got to present a proper presentation for my bosses...
Huaaa...if only I got nothing tomorrow...will be much better, but then if anything goes wrong, I only have to face Mike for another 2 hours

OMG. It's really sad and frustrating at same time...

One Night at One Raffles Quay

2009-07-15T05:11:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's the last time I post from Credit Suisse computer. This friday, which is the day after tomorrow, my summer internship will end. I know for sure that I'll miss time like this.

Quiet night time at ORQ. I feel very peaceful.
I don't know how long it'll take until I could get the same feeling as this again. The city life. Feeling of a life of banker. Feeling of businesswoman.

That's why I often take overtime hours though I have finished my work portion of the day. Easting Subway while watching sunset at marina barrage, slurping Spinelli coffee to stay focused.

I know I'll miss these things. I'll miss the good-looking guys in my row. Miss Mike's "cheers" tone when he's answering call. Miss the treat at Harry's. Miss this temporary 'expat' life. Miss Brandon. Miss the intern fellows. Miss emailing and calling people all across Asia. Miss travelling time to time between ORQ and ORL (not mising Changi though). Will miss those great people that I met during this internship.

Really, it is the best summer I've ever had. Got the fun, as well as the experiences. Got the money, prestige and eye-opener moments. Discovered my real passion.

I know when I leave this company, I might not have a chance to meet all those guys anymore. Mike's going to London this Sep. Patrick's going to UK as well for holiday. Chen Hao's going Canada. And the rest will continue their lives, and I'm losing contacts with them.

I really like ORQ@nite. When most people have already gone home, leaving the office empty. I feel very worried, fear that I might not have a chance to feel the same situation anymore.

*oops the cute guy sit near me just go back to the office, lose focus for a while*

I just want to feel this a little longer. Before I leave CS and not have access anymore. Though I'm scared of the presentations on Friday, though I know I have to do something for my CCAs, but I just want to feel this feeling a little longer....

My last chance is tomorrow. Tomorrow is the very last night I could spend in ORQ, before returning my pass to the security officers.

I only hope that someday in near future. I could be back to here and feeling much better than now. Older and wiser. Richer and get better position.

Ah...I'm feeling very emo. Seriously, if I could pick one best moment during my internship, it'd be this one, followed by my meeting with Brandon lol.

Dunno what to say anymore~~ Soon I will miss ORQ for sure

Him

2009-07-11T20:38:00.001-07:00

Melancholy mode : on.

I don't know why suddenly I miss him so much. Maybe because of some people who really annoyed me last night. I just realize, though it might be not true, that I feel much better when I'm with him, be it at the meeting or anywhere else. Feeling that he will always back me up.

I know that I can't articulate my ideas well (something that I super hate from myself), but I wonder how he always comes up with similar ideas, just that he's better in conveying them.

I feel like nobody hears me. Just miss him. I'm not saying that he has feeling for me or I have one for him, just that it's myself that feels much better with him around, knowing that someone totally listen what I have to say.

I know it isn't good. Because more and more I depend on him, I know I'll have to break my principal one day.

Melancholy mode : off.

Like the hell I care about opinion of such losers. What on earth have they achieved? Not rich, not handsome, not a child of prominent people, not score well, insensitive about woman, seriously take everything, just big-heads.

I don't like losers. They're just opposite of Brandon Edwards (simply super handsome, rich (IB dir in CS), clever (double degree biz-law) but unfortunately, not single T_T)

Disgust

2009-07-04T11:14:00.000-07:00

After reading Xiaxue's blog, http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2003/05/today-i-am-gonna-write-abt-all-molest.html, about molesting, I just thought that I should blog about it also. haha.

Although I have never experienced such extreme case like her (and some other readers) but I often get this kind of DISGUSTING looks from DISGUSTING MEN. I repeat, I never get molested physically and I wish I won't! But sometimes I got this another form of harrasment which is visual molestation. You know, the perverted look that you can guess what he's thinking about you. Yucks!

I always wonder why men are designed like that, why they have to relate everything to sex, I really can't understand that part. And why some men assume that I will EVER think the same way. Come on, just because we exchange looks, WHICH IS ALWAYS COINCIDENTALLY (argh, why my eyes keeps wondering around wherever I am, always look around etc that'w why I often exchange looks with strangers, must be genetics I guess) it doesn't mean that I have special feeling for you. Yucks! Just thinking that they're thinking about me is kinda giving me some disgust.

Not to mention those OB (orang bangla), but one cleaning service in my office. OMG! Yucks yucks yucks! The only terrible thing of my fantastic internship experience will be this yucks yucks. Actually I'm sitting near all those good looking guys (3 angmohs and 1 hot filipino guy haha) but this cleaner often show up in my floor and always look at me. I know he purposely wandering around my desk to destroy my concentration, going here and there with chin up like he's CEO, taking longer time when he's cleaning my bin and talk to the hot guys sitting near me just to be around my desk (like i wish that?! come on dont spoil my best moment with the hotties!).

I'm just trying to be honest here. Frankly speaking, he's short, not good looking, not hot at all, not rich and not lucky also I guess (if not maybe he can pursue higher education). And some more I got my serious crush already so (I really want to avoid talking about social class here) there's no way I could (or INTEND) give him second look. I wish I can show him my together-moment with my crush so that he get to big picture of everything haha. So please stop spoil the best moments of my summer period. ORQ is really the best place to work at, just that maybe they need to teach the cleaners NOT TRY to flirt with interns. Yucks. OK, I just waste my time writing about it here.

For other these kind of disgusting looks from strangers, I sometimes find it in public transportation like bus or mrt. I always avoid MRT wherever possible (since I can save money also) cause I just hate crowded places, but I have to take bus to go everywhere of course.

Come to think about it, since I live near science park, there are some bus services that I use to take : 10, 30, 51, 143 and 188. I always prefer 10 than the rest because I find its passengers are in the sense "cleaner". Service 10 starts from Kent Ridge terminal and go along Pasir Panjang Road (around 10 busstops from my place). So usually, when I get in they're only "clean" people there (as KR is still considered NUS and pasir panjang neigborhood is quite an elite one, and they will mostly go to CBD which is quite an elite workplace itself). I rarely find any OB or some perverted uncle there (thanks God that I need to take only bus 10 to my office now).

In contrast, I try to avoid services 30, 51 and 143, especially 30. This service starts from Boonlay which is err......not so clean perhaps? and go through Jurong East there where the last time I go there, I found a lot of OB there. Service 51 and 143 also starts from Jurong East. Why I avoid these services? Because usually there'll be a lot of people inside the bus already before I get in and not rarely I found some potential-to-be-visual-molesters there. So rather than having uncomfortable 30-50 mins bus rides, struggling to avoid those nasty looks, wait for other services is better I guess.

So in general I try to avoid place like Jurong East, Boonlay cause a lot of OB hanging around there. Not that I'm racist. Just that it's common perception in Singapore that they always have these perverted thoughts and keep trying to molest girls in every chance. Just disgusting.

Why men cant think like women? We may be quite emotional sometimes or overwhelmed by feelings, but we NEVER imagine having sex or some other perverted thoughts to strangers! Now that I'm mature enough (17) I start to understand why my friends (which is older) thought that I'm weird when I told them that boyfriends are only the 'special' ones that we ask to accompany us to shopping malls, cinemas etc. Now I know that they wouldn't think the same way to us. I just 'learn' this kind of thing recently--after too much reading of some blogs lol

Advice for some guys. So guys, get real! Some women will never be yours so just forget her!

Another Inspiration -Meeting Directors Project-

2009-06-05T07:11:00.001-07:00

I must really thank God for giving me a chance to intern at Credit Suisse. I must say, unlike my previous internship that is very tiring and stressful, this one is much much better.

Ok, as part of our internship program, there was this project called Meeting MD/Dir project where interns must 'interview' 10 senior directors of the company. So far my group, Apurva, Vinod, Priyanka and Chen Hao, has met 4 directors. We find the sessions were really inspiring!

Of all 4 directors that we've met, they all have very different personalities and career paths. The first director we met was Jason Forrester, British, MD for Operation Risk Management. He is very cool and organized. He explain to us systematically on what his department is about, what he does in normal day and how he can make it to the top. He even prepared slides for us, *he's the only one doing that. He know what he's talking and we got useful info on how to plan your career in a bank but it's confidential.

The next guy, I would say, the most interesting of all four, he's our favorite. His name is Tom Gillie, American, a forex options trader. He came unprepared and just finish his coffee. My first impression of him was like, this guy is really slacking, messy and unfocused. He gives us impression that he was such a nerd who only do trading and trading. BUT! After he talked, woah, we can really tell his passion toward his job. Though he jumps from one topic to another, he spilled out a lot of things (also cursing CS' eternal competitor, UBS lol). The things are also confidential (haha, I'm just too lazy to write). Then he showed us how to do transaction. He got 11 monitors for himself, a lot of them I don't know for what although he kept explaining to us (we just nod nod without knowing what delta, gamma etc etc are). But he really cool! And honestly I like the atmosphere in his department. Everyone is so friendly. When we want to take picture, they immediately posing lol. Btw, it's the first real trading floor that I have ever visited in my life haha. Overall, Tom rocks!

Next guy is called Johannes Oeni, Head of South East Asia Private Banking. As you can guess from his name, he's Indonesian (that's why I chose him). He's very busy so we only spent 30 minutes with hime (the rest is like 1 hr plus). But we know he's very friendly and charismatic. He also gave us some advice on how to be a good private banker. Again, confidential of course lol. I wish he was not busy and we could talk more..

Last one is called Leong Clinton. We dont know where he came from but obviously not Hongkong cause he denied it already. This was our longest interview, 1.5hrs. He talked all the way, from his work experience and how he moved from one office to another. But the part that is very inspiring for us was when talked about us how he built his career. He gave some great advices too, and a lot of spoiler of how bank actually works. One thing that I can spill to you, he said 'Dont ever trade opportunity with money'. Yes Leong, I didn't, don't and hopefully won't!

This four guys were really inspiring for us. Through them we got a clearer view on how things work and don't work, how to create your own path of success etc etc. I never regret that I met them. Hopefully the next 6 will be as inspiring! Later I'll update this blog, directors that we want to meet next is of course from IB, IT, if possible Research, Product and Legal Compliance...and more banker and trader please^^

Internship edition

2009-05-26T22:40:00.001-07:00

It's my third week interning at Credit Suisse. Hmm, so far so good. The work is do-able, but quite boring actually haha. My boss is a very good guy, quite handsome *though qt old alrd, 30?* and funny. What I like from the internship program is not only the CS' big name and the people (whomever I met so far has been very nice), but also the program itself.

Initially I thought that what we'll be doing is just sitting at desk and do some menial tasks, but in fact they dont make us to do that. Instead, we'll have this not-desk-related activities such as charity day, networking sessions, female mentorship program, finance awareness forum and interview with directors where we can learn more about how CS operated and how it is to work at CS.

Last week, and next week I'll be back to One Raffles Quay. These 2 weeks I am reallocated to One Raffles Link office (the one just beside Marina Square, in front of Merrill Lynch building, the south part of Goldman Sachs). Half of my time I've been idling since the data that we are all waiting for hasn't been passed to us from finance dept. So this week I've spent my days with reading news and learning about finance thingy.

I dont know other firms, but CS has their own business school, basically to teach the new employee on how the financial market works, because not all of us have finance background. They also have this online e-learning about various topics in finance which I found very addictive for me lolz. I've given up career in finance one year before when I think I'd pursue my dream to become an entrepreneur and have my own IT firm. But now, after working with CS, I really2 want to try to be a banker! Although I'm now in IT division, but I realize I have more passion to become a trader.

Now I've set my next summer goal : interning with a bulge bracket in their front office in Europe. Hopefully I can complete my current internship with good remark so that they can refer me to CS Zurich or London or Frankfurt maybe? Most of the front office of IB is either in Europe or US and they are the most hard-to-get job. Though some people believe that finance empire has broke, I am not. Given the amount of money involved in it, there's no slight chance that people could operate their business without help of banks. And I believe the banking industry will bounce back in the next 3 yrs (when I'll be graduating yay).

I have 7.5 weeks to go. Hopefully I can egt the most out of my internship. Amin

Inspiration

2009-04-26T08:02:00.000-07:00

Reading other's blog has been an inspiring activity for me. I keep reflecting their thoughts with myself. What I have achieved? What I want to achieve? How can I be a better person? How should I plan my life ahead?

Inspired by my senior's blog, I keep myself to make a full use of the chance I got. Usually I feel unchallenged after I got what I want. I let my motivation down and did not give my best. I regret what I cannot utilize in the past, and at this time. But I feel very grateful that there are still many things lie ahead of me, there's still many big chances that I can make use to improve myself.

I always regret how I cant make my junior and senior highschool meaningful enough. During that time, I only concentrated on one thing: study. What I did not realize was that the purpose of my parents 'put' me there: gain friends and build networks. My schools, objectively, are the perfect places to build your networks at early age you know? A lot of elite's children go there and as for my high school, intellectual people and future leaders are groomed there.

Why couldnt I make use of those opportunities? Why I limit myself only to my comfort zone? Why I exchange knowledge and experience only for meaningless entertainment? Why I dont like forcing my brain to think!

Another thing that I regret is that I cant utilize my free time effectively enough. Like I always o shopping when I got time : one thing that I hate (and love) by being a girl! Silly girl who keeps wasting her time for meaningless stuff. Typical girl who sometimes search for the next branded handbag she should buy. I sometimes regret this. If only I'm a guy, I should not have 'wasted' my time that way. I could use that precious time for something else; like some of my friends are now trading stocks or thinking of business plans. If only I'm a guy then I dont have to 'waste' my money buying some new clothes or makeups every month just because I'm boring with my current wardrobe.

Ah...but I am also grateful that I'm born a girl. But I still prefer to be a guy though...

Another thing that I regret is that during my time serving NUS Students' Union, I cant bring anything meaningful to the students. What I do was simply doing the normal 'job' stated in the jobscopes lol. I never really brought up an initiative that will benefit students. Ah, I'm so shamed of myself. Though it's my another big chance, but I cannot utilize it at all. Though I'm at the position who can brings improvement for the community, I didn't.

Alhamdulillah I got 2 big chances in my near future. First, the internship with CreditSuisse, one of the top investment bank, private bank and wealth management assets in the world. And my NOC, an NUS program dedicated for students who want to become future entrepreneurs. Both of them are magnificent chances that only Allah can bring to my life.

I will be working as intern at CreditSuisse technology division this summer, in the Technology Infrastructure Service (TIS) team. I'm really looking forward to it since I'll be working at the-coolest-building-of-my-version-in-singapore-CBD which is One Raffles Quay, with a bank somemore. It's like a perfect first step to my dream job. Hopefully I can use the opportunity to improve my understanding in financial world as well as keeping myself update with the latest technology development. And build networks also. Hopefully I can build a good relationship with my bosses and colleague!

I am so excited, and worried as well, cause my past work experience is not so good, mainly because I am not so good in programming and I am so careless. It's been a painful yet meaningful experience. Now I can only ive my best and leace the result to Allah.

Ganbatte ne!

Guilty

2009-04-01T03:58:00.001-07:00

Terinspirasi dr blog-nya Lisa. Gw jadi malu sendiri with myself. Though I've been given with sooo many grace, but I seldom thank Allah.

I dont want to blame Singapore which make me less and less religious each day. Though I never skipped sholat (so far) but I often jama' them though there's no special occasion.. And I never touched Koran here you now! I never read it. I'm too busy running after the fana thingy that I forget about my religion T_T! I am so dead now. Feel very guilty. Though I always remember Him whenever I want to achieve something or get something but my feelings are not...

Ya Allah, maafkanlah hambaMu ini yang selalu sok sibuk dalam mengejar hal duniawi dan tidak punya waktu untuk mengingatMu....

Feeling guilty rite now..........

It's almost the end of another semester

2009-04-01T03:28:00.000-07:00

Yep, week 11 alrd! 2 more weeks bfore final exam, 5 more weeks bfore my intern starts. Yatta!
These 2 weeks I'll be quite slack cause I finished all project, leaving only 2 labs, 1 pres and 1 late midterm test lalala~

Thinking of going back Indo next week, cause I'll get no time to go back during summer. Hmm...but still waiting for Credit Suisse to send me the contract first.

Ok, dunno what to write. I should be studying rite now, preparing for final exam which is only 3 wks away...or do my lab which is due this friday but....well, slacking off is better haha (i've been like this since sunday....doing practically nothing productive). Huaa!! Study la study! Pull up your cap!

I'm waiting for another challenge. Hmm. rite now I'm getting bored again hoahmm.

OK, for the time being what I'll do is to improve my skills. Whether by studying or getting more experience that I never done bfore. Hopefully my intern life will be enriching as well. Still dunno what I'm gonna do there, but they told me it'll involve liaising with clients in HK...hmmm...ok hopefully I can perform up to their standards. Still cant believe I'm offered a place there, though it's very competitive. Cant believe my luck!

I'm so damn lucky throughout my life. Sometimes I'm getting scared of myself too. Like my NUS admission, NUSSU Exco election, NOC intake and CreditSuisse offer. Those are some things that I'll never get unless I'm damn lucky. I'm scared that will all those things in future I have to pay a price...scared scared

Target for this summer: lose weight haha, driving my own car, and if possible watch Arashi concert in Tokyo.

Week 10 Sem 4 Updates

2009-03-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

It's been very looong time I didn't get a chance to update this blog. Partly that's because that I'm somewhat forgot that I once and still have a blog! lol. OK, many many updates that I havent put up yet.

Ok, lets start with modules *as always*. I am currently taking six modules, which is lesser than last sem. Why? Coz I scored quite badly last sem (1 A, 2B+, 3B!, shit la, worst ever) and I dont want to do the same this sem, so I decided to decrease my workload. So here I am, taking 4 computing modules (networking, operating system, information system and communication) and 2 biz module (econs and business law). The workloads are somewhat slacker, but I alrd determined to give my best for this sem, so I tried to catch up all modules in the recent recess week. Personally I believe that I'll do much better than last sem, with the condition that the theory of effort is proportional with score holds of course. (but still, though the day aft tmrw i'll be having 2 midterms, i'm still blogging zz zz) yosh!

Next update from NUSSU Exco thingy. Hmm...things arent going like I expected. I feel that I dont really get along with them...I really believe it's because of my English! I never expect that your inability to communicate in a language will bring such effect. But ya, it really brings your confidence level down, especially when you have to face those with superior leadership and communication skills...it's not that my English is that bad, but sometimes I find it hard to articulate my words well.. T_T.

But anyway, early in this year, I, with exco peeps. went to Australia to visit several university. IT WAS SUCH A GREAT EXPERIENCE! Though I'm not that comfortable with them, but Australia really cures my incomfortness haha. It was such a great place to live in! Much better than this little tiny Singapore hahaha..So we went to Brisbance, Gold Coast, Sydney and Melbourne. A lot of things happened there, memorable ones. I love all those cities, esp Sydney! Whoaa, a lot of shops manz! Piccadily, QVB, Paddy's Market etc etc. It's unfortunate that I didn't buy a lot of clothes T_T. Oh y, one more thing. Though it was summer when we went there, the breeze was so cold! I cannot tahan it...I am still a tropical person I guess.

What's more y? Hmm. Last sem I applied for NOC rite (this programme that have internship opportunity and exchange combined, abroad) to Silicon Valley. I got rejected on the first round. But fortunately I applied again this sem. An you know what! I GOT ACCEPTED^^. They only announce it like two weeks ago. So, next year I'll not going US, but Sweden instead Yay! Europe, wait for me ya!

Personally, *and commonly, I think that NOC is far way better than exchange. Coz? Besides studying, you will get a chance to do intern with startup company there. It's really a good opportunity with someone who want to have their own companies in the future. They not only teach you the basic theory of founding a company, but also provide you with a good practical experience, once again I said, overseas haha! So next next summer I'll find myself travelling around Europe. Amin!

More updates? Hmm....last week I got called for interviews for this summer internship. One with CreditSuisse, the other with Deloitte. I know. They're such big companies. I myself didn't expect that I'd be calles by them. But Alhamdulillah I got called. They will announce the result this week or next week. Please pray for me that I can get either one of them. Amin. ya Allah, please give me the best...

Ok la, that's all. Now, get back to mugging

Get the Mugging Spirit

2008-09-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

After all NUSSU Exco thingy is done *nxt friday is our AGM, 7 top posts was already decided in the internal election last friday (it took 8 hrs manz!), I'll go back for a while as a pure NUS student haghag, of coz it means that I will go back to my book and start mugging!

Midterms coming, leave behind all CCAs *including NUSSU* and grab your book. GET The Mugging Spirit!

Got 5 midterms, 1 presentation, 2 term paper and 1 final exam in the next 2 months...hope that I can bear with it...Amin

Life Updates

2008-09-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

These past few weeks *not really a few, in fact it's 6 week, startin since i come back from holiday* of my life was really2 enriching. So many things happened that I feel like years of my life had gone *lebay haha. For like 7 weeks in a row, every weekend I got event that I had to attend, making my life more miserable, but maybe fun at the same time. Now, it's over already. Finally, last weekend I got my freedom back, I can go wherever I want, can wake up anytime I want etc...Well, really2 my life has changed a lot. I got plenty experience, sufferings, stress, fun, happiness and so on *that's why it's so enriching.

One of the big turning point that I had was the fact that I'm now officially NUSSU Exco ^^. Can't wait for the first meeting, which is an internal election to see which position everybody gets. Can't wait the list to be publicized so that there will be may shock faces with me being in Exco *lebay again. Can't wait who else in the Council. Can't wait to see him again, etc. I also can't wait for NUSSU FOCC Dinner which will be held at 27th Sep.....

But before that, I have to keep struggle with my 7 modules. One of them almost finish, next week is the last lecture....have to struggle to 2 more labs and one more test to end it...The rest of my modules will end at the end of the semester. Hopefully I can cope with all of them. Amin.

I also cannot wait for my 17th bday. Hope that my parents will really2 give me a car as a present! Amin. I know it's kinda impossible for them to be that generous. But instead a big party, I prefer car lah of course...Any car also can.

OK, for now one better get ready for XML presentation tomorrow^^

Frenz?

2008-08-30T18:53:00.000-07:00

This blog is dedicated to one fren only.....it's the first time I got a fren like this. I just use "he" here la..

He's too self-centered manz, like everything we talk has to be related to him. And we have to hang arnd with people that he's comfortable with only...the hell....I also got a bunch of ppl that i'm comfy with besides u, pls dont try to limit my frens only to ur groups.

And he's too narrow minded manz, never listen to others' opinion, at least my opinion. And he also too proud of herself and always talk abt it. Pls manz, nobody will say that they're handsome or sth by themselves, they'll let ppl to say that or sth zzzz.

The worst, he alwys think that I'm the same with her, that he knows me the most. that he knows everything. Ok I'm tired. I'll limit my interaction from now on. I'll show him that we came from different class and I'll show him that I can get along with anybody. Period.

Tough Semester -full of burdens-

2008-08-21T01:09:00.001-07:00

This is really2 a tough semester (and now its only week 2 T_T)...Many things popped up in my mind, besides the module, and sometimes I cannot think properly! Sh*t, it's really hard to take care all the things in your mind.

The first burden is my modules of course. I am too kiasu to take 7 modules this sem (6.5 actually coz 1 module end at week 6). And I didnt guess them to be so hard like this! 5 of all got projects! and its not just basic team project, some require individual AND team projects, 2 requires weekly submission. Damn sia, dunno whether I can bear it or not. Until now, maybe I havent lost in any module (at least I can still catch up by next week la, try!) but I'm afraid that in the subsequent week I cannot tahan then must drop one. It's quite a decision since I'm taking Double Major...so any module withdrawal this sem will affect my later semester and my perfect module plan *hahaha....lets see la...at least I'm now thinking that starting next week I'll be able to concentrate FULLY in my modules. Amin.

The second burden is the NUSSU Exco offer that suddenly come to me. I know it's like a miracle, but that thing takes the largest portion of my brain! Like now I'm doing the election process via my fac (SOC). It hasnt been a real one, but I keep hoping! And I tell you it's not a false hoping. It starts when Mingli herself recommended me to Yeehan (the only one nussu exco running for president *at least that i know), then that Yeehan offer me a position as Asst.Publicity Director in the upcoming 30th NUSSU Exco. Then he said that there's nothing to be worried about coz they will try to "put me in". Then I asked Runyan for recommendation also, and he was like said the same thing as "put you in". I, myself, never thinking to be part of NUSSU exco. I've been told since last year that the positions only available for Singaporeans etc, and also the ones that sit there are highly qualified to be student leader, I dont think myself as one. But now, when the offer came, I still keep hoping and dreaming. How it weel feel to be in the highest council in NUS, how the recognition of myself will finally come etc...Btw, less than 2 hours I'll be having my first interview to become NUSSU rep from SOC...wish me luck...

It's so frustated that you cannot help but just hoping and dreaming. Know that you cannot do anything else except waiting the destiny to choose you....

The third burden is my NOC application. It's so complicated that I wanna give in halfway....but I keep struggling! And even now I havent finished my essay and personal statement (2 of them almost done though). I already got recommendations that I want and the rest of it....But still I'm not confident if I can pass the screening process. I really2 wanna go NOC! It's the best thing that I can get in my third year.....even better than SEP, and very enriching also...

The fourth one is my CCAs...keep thinking whether I can stay on campus next year. My focus is only to NUSSU Exco thingy so I missed the deadline for some CCAs that I've planned to join, like soccer and bizcom hahaha....btw, tomorrow I'm gonna have my Exco interview for NUSSU Welfare...hope that I can position that I want. And I thanked Caroline for drag me in to NuStudio hehe...

The fifth one is the fasting month...I know that as Moslem I should be happy, but the things is I havent paid the last year one...so now here I am...fasting without sahur...so hungry!!

The sixth one is my tuition. It keeps burdening me...truthfully I'm not in a urgent need of money, so why I teach tuition anyway? Shit, it feels like I'm wasting my time to go there and teach sec student...but after I come there, I enjoyed the tuition. I love sharing my knowledge *plus getting paid for that*, at the end of the day, after I finished the tuition, I feel really2 satisfied with myself! Quite weird rite...u upset but then u satisfied with it...

Ok, thats all first...It's just my week 2 but things cannot be more complicated for me. September please come quickly, so I can stop hoping (after become exco or non-exco is finalised, after i can catch up all my lectures etc)...

My New Ice Hockey Skates

2008-06-05T03:34:00.001-07:00

Yes finally after started admiring ice Hockey, i bought my own Ice Hockey Skates...

NIKE BAUER FLEXLITE 14 which is shown in here.....
So, happy skating everyone...

NB: I didnt buy the shoes that I show you in the last post (Nike Bauer Vapor) coz the size actually doesnt fit ma feet...so finally I bought this one, complete with its blade guard HAHAHA
soo HAPPY!!!

Sem 2 Result

2008-05-31T20:38:00.000-07:00

CS1102Y-Data Structures and Algorithms A-
I aim for minimum score of A- in this module coz I plan to be a NUS tutor (and the minimum score for both Java course Cs1101 and CS1102 is A-). Luckily I pass through. Shitty my midterm test! If it's somewhat a bit higher I'm quite sure can score A one haha *cocky cocky, but it's the truth, my damn midterm test pull my score down. For this sem, this module quite OK (except lab 2 which took us like 3 days to finish it! But after that the labs are only so-so). Dont have to really studying if you already grasp the concept, just need improvisation coz the exam questions are somewhat different from the syllabus

CS2100-Computer Organisation A
Yay! My only A this sem T_T. Thanks God. I think this module is quite fun. Once you know the concept, that's it. Actually no need to attend lecture (I skipped many of this module lecture and when I attend it, I fall asleep quite easily, so basically no need to attend lecture after all, no jokes here), you can just read the lecture note. Just read ONLY lecture notes will be enough, no need to read the book lar (part 1 maybe need read some but for part 2, no book is necessary actually). The key to score in this module is by practising past year paper. Really! You have to drill yourself with all kind of question type. Basically they improved a lot from the syllabus so you have to know the concept first before you start drilling. So, just 2 keyword for this module : concept and past year.

FNA2004-Finance B+
Hmm, how do I put it...quite dissapointing...For all the module that I took this sem, this one is below my expectation. I never never skip its lecture, mainly coz I like the material a lot. It's super fun module. Regardless of the score, I know this module is extremely fun and useful hehe. You'll know about many basic investment form and how to calculate its value after taking this module. This one is the first step if you want to trade stock in the future lalala. And just the warning.Almost all people score like almost perfect in this module, so maybe you cannot score that well...

GEK2012-Public Administration in Asia B+
This module is super super beyond my expectation! I thought I'm gonna fail it. I was so nekad to take this module actually. No particular reason, just that I feel the module name is quite interesting if you want know more about government. After taking it, its not quite true. A lot of political concept which I find hard to grasp, and also it requires critical thinking of a political science student. FYI, many of them are pol sci major year 2, so I think I'm gonna fail this module coz I dont have any political background at all. And also I'm not expert in crapping things (luckily that I can crap up to 9 pages when the exam time came, the other student crapped almost 2 booklets (20 pages)) haha...OK, thanks God that I dont have to SU this module...(or at least I think like this)

MA1506-Mathematics 2 B+
Ok, I never score really well in my Maths course. Shit. Last sem (MA1505) also got B+. But its quite oK la for me coz I dont expect any higher either. Competing with all engine student is quite hard. Some of them make the bell curve to get A really2 high. And I think I screwed my exam. This one is the hardest exam I had this sem. I cannot think and calculate properly, I'm still lucky to get B+ when I thought maybe I'll end up with B or B-.

So, as I expected from February, my CAP went down. SAP went down for 0.2 which make my CAP went down by 0.1. Just 0.1 forces me to say goodbye to the first class title. Bubye first class! But I definitely will get you back next sem! (where did I get such confident? dunno...just felt that I can make up for this sem mistakes).

So , no slacking next sem. hmm, and be more efficient!
Next sem I have to study in a regular manner and manage time efficiently since I wanna join teamNUS and CFA also....

Wishlist June 2008

2008-05-31T20:08:00.000-07:00

My wishlist for this month is only one thing. Ice hockey skates : Nike Bauer Vapor. Just yesterday I came to a ice-hockey pro shop in Kallang then I was introduced to this skates. By the time I saw and touched it, wow...it strikes me like hell! I have to own it no matter what. And the price is somewhat below my expectation, so what I am waiting for?

Hmm, the problem is still the price lar. Although it's below my expectation, the hockey shoes price is not as cheap as other thing. It costs me more than $200 (it's cheap alrd mah, coz I thought any ice hockey skates should cost more than >$400, especially for Nike Bauer or CCM). Thanks God that I have not-so-big feet so that my skates size is only 4"5 which falls under Junior category (maybe that's why its quite cheap). OK, maybe the price is not a problem anymore coz I already got my parents permission (haha, when I told them I dont know the actual price, just say it'll cost like $200. If I said it would cost more than $400, I'm sure that they wouldnt allow me, fortunately it's the real price lalala). I'm now just waiting for my salary to come up this week so that I'm not feel so much deficits in my bank account. (OK, my salary is only $500, and I alrd used it up to $400 for shopping, that one is excluding food and transportation which already exceed $200, haha, so my salary has already gone now actually, deficits if you want the exact thing).

And then I'm still thinking what should I do with this skates. I know la, during holiday I'll use it like everyday, but when the next term starts, I don't think I'll get a chance to use it unless I join any ice hockey clubs which I already thought since last sem but haven't gotten any chance to join them). Ok, maybe after I get this skates I'll get my motivation and nekad-ness back and willing to join the teams in Singapore. Among the teams here, I already eliminate some (coz there's not many woman playing ice hockey here, and this sport is not so popular in Asia though) so I have to choose between 2 only. Canadian teams or Blizzard. The latter one is local ice hockey club, the former one is owned by Ang-Mo.

OK...hopefully I can get it by the end of this week. And I pray so that the stock is not out coz once the stock is out, I have to wait for another 1.5 month...Oh no!!!!

14th May Adventures : Kampong Glam and Natl Skin Centre

2008-05-14T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today is a super tiring day. I got to walk here and there around Central Singapore. Hmm, lets be chronological.

Walking Tour-Kampong Glam
Because of SSD2213 (Singapore Urban History and Architecture -- SS module that I took in this special term) I have to go to Kampong Glam to join its walking tour. I left at 12 something and it was raining! I'd been alrd wet at that time coz I don't have any umbrella (never bought any in Singapore). Ignoring my condition, I took a bus (forget which number) to Harbourfront then later took MRT. After alighting at Lavender MRT I got to walk to our promised place which is The Kallang Riverside Public Toilet! *the hell. The problem is, that time it was raining quite hard and I have no umbrella with me! Even I don't know the exact location coz I'd never been there before! OK, that one was the worst. So I had to walk under the rain (not under the sun) for about like 500-900m before I reached the place. And the raining hadn't stopped yet until 2pm.

In the wet condition and all holding umbrella, we started the walking tour. Start at so called the "coast" of the past (but because of the reclamation it's not longer a coast) we walked all the way to Fatimah Mosque. This mosque (explained by the lecturer) is built under various style of architecture from all over the world. The "kubah" is of course from arabic tradition. The Gate is from Javanese culture. Something under Kubah is like Hindu temple. And some parts of the mosque is like church (coz the architect who designed it is also the one who designed St.Andrew church) and Buddish temple (the lecturer mentioned sth like circle but I forgot what it is).

After that we walked through the street which in the past used to be the earliest and biggest market in Singapore. The shops there mostly not maintained by the URA (Urban Redevelopment Agency or sth like that) and then transformed to the clumsy HDB area. We go through Arab Street then reach the central of the Mandala (Mandala is like # where the central being an empty place, it symbolized the central of the universe coz exactly located between sea and mountain, and between sunset and sunrise.) Near there there's Sultan palace that unexpectedly had been renovated and relocated so that it's not in the same shape as the original one.

Then we go through more shops till we reached Sultan mosque. This mosque is great and one of the Malay site maintained by Singapore Heritage Board. There are many shops near there that sell batik and art craft. The final destination of today's walking tour is the Moslem and Royal Cemetery. Then we are dismissed.

In between
After the walking tour, I walked to the busstop quite far from Royal Cemetery and take a bus (also dunno which number, but surely heading to Fullerton area, 197?). I just take any bus randomly and also alight at a bustop near Raffles museum by mistake. Coz it's just 4pm, I was still relaxed knowing that I wouldn't be late for my doctor appointment. Waiting for bus no.167 to come (I wanna go Orchard to take the nearest MRT to Novena), I read "The Singapore Walking Tour" which purposely I borrowed from cenlib the day before. My bus came and I alighted at opposite MRT station (at the back of ISetan), take MRT to Novena.

I was so hungry when I reached Novena. I hadn't eaten anything since the morning so I decided to buy 2 doughnuts. After that I was searching for the location of National Skin Centre. It's quite painful coz I had walked for 2 hours full for the walking tour, and walk from this bustop to that bustops repeatedly. Finally, after wandering round Novena Square, I went back to the MRT Station and took an exit at Thomson Road to take Bus no.21, directly to NSC.

National Skin Centre
I have to admit that Singapore is so sophisticated. After making an appointment to see Dr.Tan a week before via internet, I came to Clinic B which has been allocated for me. Then at EXACTLY at the appointment time which is 17.50, I entered the doctor room. Dr.Tan wasn't doing anything, he just typing on his computer and questioning me a few question. After just around 5mnts, he told me to leave. That's it! The consultation only take 5mnts for $76!! That one is the dull one, the sophisticated thing come after this.

To take the medicine at the pharmacy at level 1, all you have to do is to scan the barcode in your appointment card and waiting to be called, that's it. No prescription needed, all have been transferred from Dr.Tn computer to the pharmacy. Wow, great system. So I just have to wait to be called then later take my medicine. It's quite expensive but I think it worths a try. Hmm, unique experience to come to the doctor in Singapore. Very different from Indonesia although Indonesia doctors are more friendly I think.

Uniquely Shopping

2008-04-08T04:43:00.001-07:00

Sempet minggu2 lalu, sekitar mid-March, gw ke Raffles mall ama Suntec 4x in a week. Yg pertama nganterin tania nyalon, cuman salonnya tutup trus kita jalan2 gak jelas. Yang kedua, gw lagi stress dan emang sem ini blom sempet-sempetnya belanja gtu, akhirnya gw keliling2 lah itu di 2 mall tersebut.

Namanya juga cewe blanja, suka gak kira-kira lol, apalagi tangan gw udah gatel gtu udah lama gak shopping (sem ini lbih sering kongkow2 di cafe and mug gtu, jarang gw pgi sendirian). Gw kan kalo belanja gtu mesti sendirian, suka gak enak klo misalnya ada yg nemenin, jadi gak bebas hehehe....Then alhasil tangan gw penuh gtu ama kantong blanjaan. Yang tadinya ke suntec cuman mau nyari sendal jepit gantiin sendal jepit kudel gw, akhirnya beli tas, dompet, jaket 2, sepatu, celana pendek ama kemeja. Sendal-nya malah gak dapet T_T.

Nah, habis gw kluar toko terakhir which is The Wallet Shop, gw didatengin aunty2 gtu. She said, "Woah so a lot leh, let me see your receipt". Waktu itu gw gataw ngapain dy minta receipt2 gw. Ternyata, di Raffles mall waktu itu lagi ada promotion gtu, klo shopping in fashion category >$100, bakalan dpt gift gtu. Lah gw mana tau coba, blanja2 aja, mana pduli gw. Nah, si aunty itu akhirnya nyuruh gw ke customer service buat ambil hadiahnya. Kita berdua combine receipt2 kta hahahaha...Aunty2 itu sih agak2 mencurigakan, kan gw ama dy kira hadiahnya cuman voucher $5 doang gtu, nah dy minta vouchernya buat dy doang. Gw sih ikhlas aja, tapi gw pnasaran, si Aunty itu kok ngebet amat ama $5 doang (soalnya dy ndiri ud blanja kyk $80an gtu). Agak sebel juga ama aunty2 itu, wong receiptnya banyakan punya gw kok dy yg minta hadiahnya huehuehue...

Ternyata pas ke customer service, hadiahnya bkan cuman voucher $5, tapi jug adpt kalung dr Chomel. Hahaha, sebelum ketauan tuh aunty2 gw umpetin dulu tuh kalung, yg gw kasih lyat cuman vouchernya...huehuehuehue....akhirnya kta sama2 puas deh. Si aunty dpt voucher yg dia pengen, gw dpt kalung yg gak w duga...lumayan...stelah gw cek tuh kalung worth likely $26 hueheuhuehue...lucky lucky...

CCA things

2008-03-13T07:39:00.001-07:00

Huhuhu, my CCA workload is now exceeding my NUS modules'. Here's the list for this week!

For Nam Wah Pai rite, this week not only I have to do the notice board things (which I have done successfully hehe, though I cannot cut down e budget....a girl cannot stop when shopping la, borong aja gw smua barang di coop lol). And then still have to man the booth for damn NUS open house this sunday! Huhuhuhuhu...toushiyo toushiyo....Oh y, then have to go the the usual practice too (which I've been skipping since last month). Still can bear with it coz everything will be over this week. Jia You

For Econs Society, next Monday have to man the boot also for their bazaar, dunno how long!

For Street Jazz Dance, I hv to come to usual practice, but this time I have to catch up since last week i skipped it due to midterm tests.

For NTS rite, not much left things to do except have to send out proposals to the respective sponsors and prepare for our new office (which will be lauched ard April?). No more designing. Thanks God...

For CF, though I've become IT director now, I got two more things to do lar. Find more members and create video things. So basically our main job is to build website and video things. Hmm, I have to learn dreamweaver or flash in only 2 days!!! I have to do this unless I cannot stick up with the deadline which is next week!! So far only got Wilson to join my team...Oh y, I still hv to contact Danny, last's year IT director...Tsin Li had given me his contact, but I'm too lazy to contact him now ....zzzz.....Huihuang's also not much help, he's more to publicity things

For Enchanting Indo..dun care anymore. At one side I'm relieved to be repositioned only as subcomms, so with my CCA pile like now, it wouldn't be much problem. But I think I also wouldn't be so much help for them laa, too busy this holiday

For Rag rite...first job of presenting video for NUS open house will be done by Gao Zheng, so nothing to do with me la hehe. But surely I know that all the publicity things for Rag n Flag are far exceeds the capacity of 3 ppl!! So much things to do from backdrop, website, files, ticket, booklet + 50th years NUSSU book, T-shirt, the logo itself+++...hua....a lot of work la! Runyan and Mingli also some kind of cold-blooded la, my 1st impression of them *run away..And also the thing that upset me is that our meeting is excluded from the usual Rag Team meeting T_T...The main reason why I wanna join Rag is because I love the dynamism and want to be a part of it...Nvm la, monday we got general meeting for all Rag n Flag team.

Any CCA not in the list? I think I forgot some...Oh y, tennis practice will commence next Wednesday! I just realized that Timothy also join...hmmm....ok laa....I wanna play tennis more than ever...to release my stress....

hichichichic

Broken Heart + Score Parade

2008-03-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, ikutan si rara bkin blog broken heart parade, kan kta lgy sama2 broken heart T_T...
link blognya rara http://raraurie.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/2008/03/broken_heart_pa.html

Critanya gini nih, gw ama rara ada gebetan, sayangnya gebetan kita udah ada yg punya smua. Si runyan dah attached, tutor malay-nya sih rara malah lbih parah, uda pake cincin, ntah itu cincin tunangan or cincin kawin or cincin 25th anniversary *ckckck...Nasib anak NUS nih, kebanyakan belajar jadinya gebetannya diambil orang *wakakakak, kyk ce-nya bukan anak NUS aja (lah, ini jga gw gataw)

Iss, kok gw malah nulis blog! Harusnya blajar nih blajar! Sbagai anak NUS yg baek gak boleh ktinggalan lecture, mesti catch up. Nih di dpan gw lagi terpampang buku Computer Organization yang harusnya gw baca, tapi nganggur gtu aja karena di depannya lagi ada si John tersayang gw (bwt yg gataw John, call 999). Nih si masi mending, ktinggalan 1 topic doang. Module GEM gw yang political science, readingnya udah gak gw baca sejak week 4....note that this week is week 9 hahaha, mana each week readingnya 60 pages lagi..yasuw laaaa. Padahal rencananya ku tak mau SU nih module loh, seru sih ^^, byr bsa blajar korupsi tanpa ketauan (loh?).

Balik lagi ke broken heartnya gw dan rara. Yah apa boleh buat ra! Cheersss, co cakep masih banyak di luar. Anak arts ama anak engine banyak yg keren tuh, 2nd year SOC juga OK (knapa 1st yearnya butek2 sih *ditimpuk). Masih banyak ikan di lautan hehehehe....

Aduh resolution gw kacau...bukan resolution 2008, gw mah bkin resolution tiap minggu...byasa anak SOC, tp minggu resolutionnya yg ptg slesein lab, tutorial ama assignment hahaha, walaupun sem 2 ini gw asal ngerjain doang, gak ngerti copy punya tmen, kagak ngerti bodo. Aduh2 kok jadi parah gni sih? Satu sem di NUS ternyata udah cukup untuk memudarkan semangat belajar yang berkobar (cih, kyk dah pah berkobar gtu)..buktinya skrg! Drpd baca buku yang gw lakuin malah nulis2 blog gni, menghidupkan kembali blog 2 taun yg lalu hahaha.....

Iss, inget 2 taun yg lalu....jdi pgn balik ke Sabang!! huaa.....miss that beach! my 'private' beach....si Papa lgy di Aceh skrg...kmaren dr malay, ke spore, ke batam trus ke aceh..huaa..pdhl mau ngikut gw....mau jalan2 (udah gak mikir kuliah lagi gw) di pantai...pantai spore gak seru ah, ga ada ombak!

Hix hix hix.....sedihnya. Patah hatiku karena Runyan haha, tapi kmaren stelah gw lyat2 gy dy gak ckep2 amat kok, keren aja badannya, tinggi gtu^^, NUSSU exco pula lagy hehee, pdhl baru year 2 loh....salutt saluutt

1. Amdahl's Law : there's unaffected part of excecuted time that's not affected by the speedup! Careful, that one is the pitfall everybody made ^^.
2. Faster computer has higher MIPS rating
3. The lower CPI the better the performance
^^ gni nih hasilnya klo nge-blog ambil mugging, campur sari isi blognya! Chapter 4 slese dgn skimming, balik ke chapter 2 skrg, ttgg different MIPS...

Udahan dulu deh....mw mug bntr sblm ke fongseng

BORING

2008-03-03T04:46:00.000-08:00

Now I feel sooooooo bored that I feel I wanna suicide to kill this boredom (haha, not that extreme lar). Now I'm sitting at YIH study room since 11am this morning. Initially I just wanna study Maths for my midterm test tomorrow. But I ended up chatting, checking email and write blog like this. ic
I'm so bored! I even turn on my webcam and start taking my own pics narcistically. People around me maybe realize it and they stared at me with a weird glance lol hahaha....This is one of my pics that I took...... walaw!! so bored lar!!!

New Post in the New Millenium

2008-03-01T03:22:00.000-08:00

Haiyoo, it took so long time for me to continue posting a blog like this. So far I got really-really no time for posting my own life. Hmm, one reason is because my greatest blog in wordpress *with my own theme* was disappeared to nowhere, causing me to write no blog lol....

By the way, I'm back again, today, in the first day of march 2008. My life changed a lot since the last time I wrote this blog *which I cannot remember when*. Now I'm already college student, I'm no longer live at the same roof as my parents, I already turned 16, I already......

Well, now I'm living in PGP, Prince George's Park residence, some kind of dormitory lar in my university. Oh ya, I'm currently studying Computer Engineering (SOC) in NUS (Natl Univ of Singapore). Now it's my second semester.

Many things happen here. My life was not as suck as before. I got a lot of boredom-killer here *lol*, many jobs, many friends, many unexpected things and many new experiences. Well, the only same thing is I always have to study. It's even worse rite here. We're forced to mug everyday or we'll be kicked out of the harsh competition in pursuing good grades lalalala...but nevermind, don't be that-so-mugger. There're many great things out of library there.

It's been 7.30 pm here. At 8 I'm going to University Cultural Centre to watch my friends playing Harmonica....*I was forced to buy the ticket in exchange of lab answer..but at the end Tania didn't give me any answer but I end up buying her ticket.....*revenge mode*.

Well, I cannot sum up everything in just one post. For now on, I'll try to publish post as many as I can lar, but I cannot promise you since next week I'll be having my busiest week in 2008. Got 4 midterms, 2 presentations, 1 lab and 1 assignment in just 5 days...well, I'm not ready to face it yet.

Btw, hooray, I was elected to become Rag Publicity Head this year. Hehehe, with the handsome PD *dunno whether he's PD or advisor sth*. Go rag! Keep your dynamism! Why I choose rag? Cause it's the one that seems so many fun in it. I love yelling and firing up my spirit now lol.....

Last week I went to the celebration of Singapore's bid as Youth Olympic Games 2010 host. Hmm, seems more or less like rag. Youth gathered at Padang, singing, yelling, what a nationalism. Wish Indo can be like that? hhmm...10 years enuf meh? Well, I also got NUSTeam t-shirt which I've been waiting for since my 1st sem....hahaa.....Actually it's only for the sports team that represent NUS. I'm also sportsTeam, but I haven't represented NUS at any level T_T. Only supporting Singapore last week...

Well, that's all for now. I'm heading for UCC after praying....hear from me soon..but cannot promise u.

Am I going to Mature?

2006-10-20T19:12:00.000-07:00

Gw baru belajar kalo gw ternyata banyak utang budi ama orang lain. Gw belajar makna kehidupan dengan cara ngeliat sikap mereka dst. Punya temen ganti2 dan akhirnya gw baru nyadar klo semuanya gak sama. Lo ngelahirin anak lo. Dari kecil lo rawat, lo didik supaya bener (meskipun tampaknya lo agak maksa dia). Tapi lo gak bisa kukung dia. Semua orang punya jalan sendiri, mereka mengembara di jalan yang berbeda-beda. Nasibnya juga beda. Selama mereka tau jalan pulang ke rumah mereka, saat itulah peran seorang ibu telah berhasil. *Quoted from Dimsum Terakhirnya Clara Ng.* Keren. Lo nyadar klo apa yang lo jalanin selama ini ternyata udah ditakdirin. Mau alasannya lo milih jalan itu sendiri kek, atau orang lain. Pokoknya pilihan itu sendiri udah ditakdirin. Subhanallah. Dunia gak sepicik yg gw kira. Di lingkungan yang membosankan pun lo bisa menemukan sedikit adventure, walaupun kadang2 ngeselin. Di zona nyaman lo, lo juga bisa nemuin masalah yg rumit.
Gw juga baru belajar ternyata perpisahan itu seperti kita membaca ending sebuah buku. Buku yang udah kita tekuni dari awal ampe akhir. Kita baca klimaks pertama, antiklimaknya, klimaks keduanya, sampe adegan2 gak pentingnya aja ampe lo perhatiin. Dan saat lo udah lama banget baca buku itu, lo udah menyerap sebagian ceritanya, udah ngerasa lo turut berperan di dalamnya, malah sampe ngerasa klo buku itu lo yang bikin. Setelah sekian lama, klo halaman buku itu telah mendekati akhir, lo usahain supaya baca buku itu sedetail mungkin, gak lewatin satu katapun. Walaupun lo mau tau gimana endingnya, tapi lo belom siap buat ngebacanya. Pas di halaman terakhir, lo mulai inget adegan2 flash gimana tokoh2 di buku itu berperan *meskipun cmn dlm angan lo sendiri*, keinget pas mereka bangun tidur, interaksi ama orang lain dll. Kata terakhir. Lo sedih, gak siap tapi apa mau dikata, ending sudah menjelang. Gak ada lagi yang bisa lo lakuin. Seiring berjalannya waktu, lo mulai beli buku2 baru. Buku yg tadi, walaupun gak dilupakan seluruhnya, tapi udah gak berasa asik lagi. Lo udah terjun ke dunia buku baru lo. Menemukan some fun di sana, dan mengulangi cerita yang sama. Gitulah kehidupan. Met one another, then separate. Know somebody, forget nobody, but in your memory, they are changed by another.
Udah dulu deh maen kata2 sok puitisnya. Gw tiba2 pengen nulis2 itu aja. Besok gw ulangan fisika ttg Momentum dan Impuls serta Dinamika Gerak Rotasi. Juga ulangan sejarah. Jadi sekarang gw mesti sholat Isya dulu, trus baru belajar. C U nxt time!

My Weird Feeling

2006-10-20T19:09:00.000-07:00

Nah sekarang rapot. Pas dibagiin rapot bayangan, gw sih totalnya nomer wahid. Tapi pas rapot aslinya, kalah satu pin sama Wicak. Bner2 satu pin, dia 1819 gw 1818.....gimana gak nyesel coba!!! Bodoin amat ah, soalnya malemnya gw terhibur sama pertandingan Jerman vs Argentina. Puas banget gw!!! Sumpah gw puas banget ngeliat Jerman ngalahin Argentina lewat adu penalti, segala kekecewaan gw terhadap rapot gw kayaknya udah gak pernah ada. So, I’m ready to face the new day. Bsoknya gw sengaja khusus dateng ke sekolah buat ngejek Wicak karena kekalahan Argentina. Lol. Sekalian daftar BTA sih, tapi gak jadi karena keramean. Males. Nah, kyknya itu aja ttg rapot gw semester 1 kelas 2. Not so bad, but not so good also.

World Cup (in order): Italia, France, Germany and Portugal. Gw sempet kesel banget!! Ampe merasa gak ada semangat hidup bgitu Jerman kalah ama Itali di semifinal hix.....Sedih banget!!! Gak enak, sempet mau nangis juga sih...Jerman hix....eh, gw punya idola baru loh Bastian Schweinsteiger....Si wild boy, mukanya gak tlalu keren, tapi gayanya asik banget buat diliat. Keren aja, bandel2 gtu. Wild Schweinsteiger *ngetiknya susah nih*.  fotonya Schweinsteiger

Ternyata bner loh. Sepupu cowok gw dari keluarga Papa banyak yg keren. Gw kira tengil2 gtu, taunya asik juga, gajul2....Dulu kan kebanyakan ketemu terakhir kali pas masih pada bocah, kagak ngerti gedenya kyk gimana *lagian gw juga gak inget siapa aja yg dateng* Nah sekarang dah pada gede2....lumayan juga sih....nah sekarang ada Bang Ipan di rumah, katanya mau masuk STAN. NARSIS abis, sok keren..tapi gak keren2 amat sih, lumayanlah.....tapi narsisnya itu gak nahan lol....tapi selebihnya kocak banget deh, gampang banget digodain plus digangguin ama Wiwik dsdr. Jadi nyesel gak dibolehin ama Maam buat ngehadirin pernikahan Kak Ika di Aceh kemaren. Kan pasti pada ngumpul semuanya tuh, nah so pasti banyak saudara2 keren yg ngumpul juga lol. Banyak yg masih SMU lagi....hehe dasar weird. Bakayarou.

My Last Trip : Aceh Discovery

2006-10-20T19:05:00.000-07:00

Sabtu, 22 Juli 2006
It’s been long time that I didn’t write in here. About 4 months. Where I should start my long-long pending lifetime story?

Let’s make the outline first: aceh vacation, report, world cup, fam and hand.guy + kak Ika marriage, Dorama, school, outbond, feelin’, Harry Potter. Just see and whenever *in future* I want to look back in my teenage life, I’ll be laugh at my silly things that I felt, I did, I wrote in here. Lol....

Yep, sebenernya sih gw udah lumayan lama pergi ke Acehnya. Sekitar bulan April lalu, tepatnya kita berangkat tanggal 29 April 2006 (kenapa gw bsa inget tanggal ini, soalnya gw tulis di reminder HP gw yg sampe skrg blom keapus). Gila, gw sih pertamanya gak nyangka klo di Aceh bsa have fun gtu.

Hari pertama, tiba di bandara Blang Bintang, lihat bintang buannyaakak banget!!!!!!!!! Keren deh. Baru kali itu gw ngeliat bintang seterang en sekeren itu, kayak kita seperti disambut oleh langit.....hehehe GR.... Trus dijemput ama kak Era. Kak Era sekarang cantik bgt, kurus tp manis. Tapi makin gajul aja tuh org hehehe (gw masih inget moment2 di sana, unforgettable moment gtu). Trus gw ama papa pergi ke rumah Papi dulu, biasalah silaturahmi dulu. Papa sih lebih suka kalau kita nginep di rumah Papi aja, soalnya rumah Om Jamal *ntar kita ujung2nya malah nginep disana* udah kepenuhan. Gedenya sih lumayan, tapi orangnya buaannnyaakkkk bgt. Ada 20-an gtu, gw aja gak nyadar, gw kira palingan cuman 10 atau belasan org, ujung2nya gw itung2in, terus udah berhenti gtu di angka 20-an. Hix, pantesan sempit bgt!!!
Yep, gtu deh, hari pertama en kedua ada di rumah oom jamal. Keesokan harinya kita jalan2 ke pantai apa gtu, yang bekas kena tsunami juga. Di sana ada reruntuhan hotel yg konon katanya hotel plg OK di Banda Aceh. Tapi sayang sekarang udah hancur. Ada juga pabrik semen yang udah tinggal puing *ttp gede juga seh*. Dulu di pantai yg panjang tersebut, banyak org yg surfing ama berenang, maklum, pantainya emg PW bgt!!! Angin sepoi2 banyak bgt!!! Tapi sayangnya kita nyampe ke sana sekitar jam 12-an siang!!!!!!!!! Anjriitttt!!! Panas ABISSSSSS....gak nahan.....tapi untung ada semacem pondok gtu. Hehehe.

Oh ya, di sana banyak saudara loh. Klo tau gw, gw paling gak suka ama yg namanya ngumpul rame2. Awalnya sih gw emg berpikiran kyk gtu. Apaan sih? Norak bgt, menuh2in tempat aja. Tapi ujung2nya gw berubah pikiran. Anjriittt....ramah2 semua....terlalu ramah malah, gw ampe suka gak enak hati karenanya hix...soalnya gw kan paling gak bsa sama yg namanya urusan tetk bengek pekerjaan rumah tangga gtu...*maklum anak mami lol*. Ada banyak anak kecil, mulai dari yg lbh kecil drpd Vivi ampe Kak Liya yg udah kuliah....hehehe...

Baik2 semua tuh. Tapi gw suka pusing, soalnya klo kita jalan2 kan mobilnya Avanza, gak kecil2 amat sih, tapi isinya suka kepenuhan. Blom lagi sinar matahari Banda Atjeh yg terlalu menyengat, bkin gw pusing klo habis jalan *sinarnya itu loh, gak nahan....bkin org bawaannya ngantuk mulu gara2 kesilauan*. Itulah sebabnya gw gak terlalu suka keluar siang-siang, lagian harus pake kerudung pula. Kayak gak tau gw, gw benci ama yg namanya gerah. Lagian waktu itu gw cuman make baju celana ¾ ama lengan pendek, masa pake jilbab? Tapi gak enak juga sih, soalnya kebanyakan yg lain emg pada pake jilbab semua. Gerah bin panas udara Banda Aceh sempet bkin gw pusing bgt sih. Tapi pas pagi2, sore2 or malem2 tuh asik.

Nah, suatu saat, gw kan ke rumah Papi, nah diajak “ngalay” ama Kak Era, Kak Ika, Kak Elin dsdr. Gila, asik banget!!! Ngalay di tengah kota Banda Aceh, sumpah asik!!! Oops..sebenernya bukan ngalay sih, tapi diajak makan yang namanya Ayam Sampah *kocak kan, enak juga sih...tapi berhubung gw males makan yg repot seperti ayam, gw milih makan daunnya aja. Daunnya itu kyk yg biasa ada di pohon sekolah, tp digoreng....enak juga, baru sekali itu nyoba makan daun kyk kambing lol*. Nah, dalam perjalanan pergi dan pulang. Gajul abis, muter kaset Radja kenceng bgt, sampe kuping sakit.....tapi asik!!! Tau kan maksud gw, gajul ala anak muda *alah, bahasanya*. Tapi sumpah, salah satu moment asik pas gw di Aceh. Gw mulai suka gajul sekarang gara2 moment itu, sebelumnya gw nganggep klo yg kyk bgituan itu konyol. Tapi sekarang nggak lagi. It’s fun, really2 amusing!!! Anjriittt....gw pengen lama2 tuh. Di mobilnya asik, lagian malem2 kan gak panas en gak perlu masang AC. Hehehe.....

Rencana awal sih kita mau ke Meulaboh, kan saudara Papa banyak yang disana. Tapi berhubung waktunya gak cukup *berangkat ke Meulaboh min.10 jam, tampah istirahat plgan satu hari buat PP....maennya jadinya cuman satu hari* jadi kita akhirnya pergi ke Sabang bertiga ama Oom Jamal.

Berangkat naek ferry dari Uleuleuh *susah mengejanya lol*. Naek kapal apa gw lupa, yg jelas termasuk kapal kelas dua, tapi udah yg termasuk bagus di Selat Sabang *sebenernya sih bagus, tp masih ada yg lebih bagus lagi, tp gw sih OK-OK aja, as long as it’s still fun*. Nah, kan gw bosen tuh berada dalam kabin penumpang. Kebetulan kapal tokcer ini menyediakan anjungan di atas kapal. Tanpa atap, kebuka gtu!! Gimana gak asik, bisa ngeliat Samudra Hindia yang bgitu luas. Subhanallah!!!! Keren bgt. Untung waktu itu udah sore!!! Matahari walaupun masih menyengat, tp gak terlalu terik. Pokoknya OK deh, cuacanya juga cerah. Tapi mesin kapalnya mati satu *dr 2 mesin*, jadinya yg mesti perjalanannya cuman 40 menit jadi 2 jam. Tapi it’s OK, gw malah lebih seneng lama-lama di kapal, Asik bgt!!!! Anjungan kapal itu asik banget!!! Bisa ngeliat laut langsung, tanpa atep, keterpa angin laut, sepoi-sepoi, matahari Ok, cuaca fine, cuman agak rame ama bapak2 *gw ngulang2 ini karena emg keren bgt, one of the best experience in my lifetime*. And what’s coming next??? DOLPHIN!!! Lumba-lumba asli di laut lepas yg pertama kali gw liat. Banyak bgt lumba-lumba loncat di sekitar kapal kita di Selat Sabang. KEREN!!!!!!!!!! Subhanallah!!! Keren. Di salah satu samudra terluas di dunia, ngeliat salah satu spesies mamalia yang ada di air. Keren!!! Susah dilukiskan, pokoknya keren!!! Hehehe....kepengen lagi. Coba ada mama, pasti kita gak dibolehin naik kapal feri deh.....hix....
Nah sampe di Sabang, ternyata Sabang lebih sejuk drpd Banda Aceh. Kita bertama ke rumah saudaranya Oom Jamal dulu, silaturahmi dll dulu deh. Ujung2nya kita nginep di hotel. Hotel kecil sih, tapi PW lah, namanya juga hotel!!!.....Nah, besoknya kita pke mobil yg dipinjem dari saudara yg kmaren ke Tugu 0 kilometer. Klo bsa dibilang ujung paling barat Indonesia deh. Jalan ke sana bukannya kayak masuk kampung, tp kayak masuk hutan. Tapi sumpah gak rugi, di perjalanannya aja, banyak teluk2 dengan pemandangan wonderful dan pulau2 kecil yg masih hijau banget!!! Keren!!!! Sejuk lagi....

Abis itu kita berhenti sebentar di warung, beli cemilan trus jalan lagi. Di tengah jalan sempet jug ada monyet, kita kasih pisang2 trus pada berebutan....lucu2 ih monyetnya. Tapi sayangnya baterai kamera digitalnya habis....jadiny agak bsa banyak foto-foto T_T. Untungnya Hp Oom Jamal ada kameranya. Di tengah jalan papa juga sempet ngobrol ama Satpam. Hix, lama...gak enak nunggunya.

Nyampe di tugu 0 kilometer. Keren deh!!!!! Terbayar semua. Coba lo manjat pagernya, liat ke sekeliling lo! CUMAN ADA LAUTAN LUAS. SUBHANALLAH. KEREN BANGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Di situ lo bisa ngerasain *seenggaknya ini yg gw rasain* klo dunia yg luas itu cuman lo yg bsa ngeliat, lo yg bsa ngerasain, lo yg bisa menikmati. Soalnya dalam jarak pandang segitu jauhnya, cuman ada laut!!! Lo berasa terbang karen abanyak angin dan emg letak tugu itu ada di bukit, bawahnya jurang dengan karang yg diterjang ombak. Keren sumpah!!!! Di depan lo gtu, di depan mata lo!!!! Terhampar Samudra Hindia. ASLI, gak cuman yg bsa lo liat di peta. Jangan bayangin sama kayak di Ancol. Keren banget!! Jauh.....biru dengan beberapa awan mengambang di atasnya. LUASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS BANGET!!! Lo kyk bsa menggapai cakrawala dunia *bukannya hiperbola, tp ini yg gw rasain dan semoga bbrp tahun ke depan gw masih bisa nginget pemandangan itu*. Luas...lo gak bsa ngeliat apa2 selain laut. Kedengaran suara ombak menerjang karang di bawah. Subhanallah banget deh!!! Sumpah keren!!! Luas en seperti unlimited gtu. Semua laut klo lo ngerti maksud gw. Dan itu gak ngebosenin, lo gak bsa bosen ngeliat pemandangan sekeren itu. Damai? Yep, kayak semua beban lo ilang gtu. Lo bsa ngeliat salah satu samudra terluas di depan mata lo. Dan saat itu cuman lo yg ngeliat langsung. Cuman lo sendiri yang berdiri di ujung paling barat Indonesia. What will you feel? Cuman lo yg bsa ngeliat pemandangan keren itu, seakan-akan sebelumnya gak pernah ada orang selain lo yang pernah ngeliat pemandangan yang sama. Sumpah keren!!! Klo gw bsa balik ke sana, gw mau tuh!!!! Kyk terbang....keren.....tebingnya keren...everything seems to be so perfect!!!

OK, akhirnya kita balik, sebab sebagaimanapun bagusnya di sana, kita gak bsa tinggal di sana terus menerus kan? Dulu katanya di tebing deket situ ada kapal dari Myanmar yg terdampar. Aslinya mau ke Malaysia, malah nyasar ke Sabang. Ada tuh ceritanya di Aceh Pos atau apalah namanya. Jujur aja, serem juga sih di tugu itu. Cuman bertiga, mana sekelilingnya hutan lagi....tapi no prob. That scenery has never left my mind!!! Nah, habis itu kita ke Pantai Gapang.

Letaknya deket dari tugu 0 kilometer. Ngadepnya klo gw gak salah sih ke arah selat Malaka gtu, tapi masih termasuk samudra Hindia juga. THAT IS THE BEST BEACH THAT I’VE EVER EVER EVER SEEN!!!!!!!!!!!. Gw gak tau mau bilang apa. The beach seems perfect, white sand, medium wave and also handsome guys lol. And do you believe that the beach was not so noisy? Gw gatau kenapa, mungkin karena gw pergi hari biasa kali ya, bukan hari liburan, jadinya rada sepi. But, it makes everything better. Gw bisa ngerasa klo pantai itu “terisolasi” *padahal nggak*, gak sembarang orang yg bsa ke sana. Keren banget, kayak kita bsa punya private beach gtu. Sumpah keren!!!!! Banyak kerang lagi, tepatnya sih shell-nya doang lol. Keren, tipikal pantai sempurna. Gak terlalu rame. Ombaknya sedang. Pasir putih. Banyak kerang. Laut super duper jernih. Gradasi kebiruan, kyk di Pasifik gtu. What will you demand more? Sumpah. KEREN!!!!!! Subhanallah!!!! Lagi-lagi Samudra Hindia. Keren bgt emang!!! PANTAI TERKEREN TERINDAH TERBAGUS YANG PERNAH GW LIHAT SECARA LANGSUNG. Banyak bule keren lagi. Cakep2 choy....lol...

Ok, let’s leave the beautiful beach. I’ve taken a picture there. Then, we got back to Banda Aceh. This time we took the speed ferry and there’s no open-air deck in there. So, I just stayed still on my seat and watched Indonesian Idol Extra. Fortunately we just spent 40 minutes, but we had to wait about 1 hour before Avanza picked us up. So, let’s get back to Jamal uncle home. And spent more day in there, with nothing so special again except I could go wherever I wanted.
Nah, ini hari terakhir sebelum pulang. Aku, Papa, banyak anak2, Kak Liya ama Bang Iqbal makan malem di tongkrongan deket rumah. Ternyata klo pagi2 sepi, tapi malem2 banyak org bgt. Kyk semacem kafe pinggir jalan gtu deh. Sik sih. And there’s some weird feelin’ of me. You know that I mean. Gak tau kenapa cowok2 sepupu gw lumayan semua. Nah jujur aja, si Iqbal itu salah satunya. Masih kelas 2 SMA juga loh, skarang sih udah 3 *baru naek kelas*. Ok, kayaknya itu udah gw ceritain sebisa gw tentang trip gw di Aceh, seru loh....gw jadi pengen ke sana lagi. Hehehe.....biar ketemu dia sekalian. Lol.