Winteru no Kokoro

Terinspirasi dr blog-nya Lisa. Gw jadi malu sendiri with myself. Though I've been given with sooo many grace, but I seldom thank Allah.

I dont want to blame Singapore which make me less and less religious each day. Though I never skipped sholat (so far) but I often jama' them though there's no special occasion.. And I never touched Koran here you now! I never read it. I'm too busy running after the fana thingy that I forget about my religion T_T! I am so dead now. Feel very guilty. Though I always remember Him whenever I want to achieve something or get something but my feelings are not...

Ya Allah, maafkanlah hambaMu ini yang selalu sok sibuk dalam mengejar hal duniawi dan tidak punya waktu untuk mengingatMu....

Feeling guilty rite now..........

Yep, week 11 alrd! 2 more weeks bfore final exam, 5 more weeks bfore my intern starts. Yatta!
These 2 weeks I'll be quite slack cause I finished all project, leaving only 2 labs, 1 pres and 1 late midterm test lalala~

Thinking of going back Indo next week, cause I'll get no time to go back during summer. Hmm...but still waiting for Credit Suisse to send me the contract first.

Ok, dunno what to write. I should be studying rite now, preparing for final exam which is only 3 wks away...or do my lab which is due this friday but....well, slacking off is better haha (i've been like this since sunday....doing practically nothing productive). Huaa!! Study la study! Pull up your cap!

I'm waiting for another challenge. Hmm. rite now I'm getting bored again hoahmm.

OK, for the time being what I'll do is to improve my skills. Whether by studying or getting more experience that I never done bfore. Hopefully my intern life will be enriching as well. Still dunno what I'm gonna do there, but they told me it'll involve liaising with clients in HK...hmmm...ok hopefully I can perform up to their standards. Still cant believe I'm offered a place there, though it's very competitive. Cant believe my luck!

I'm so damn lucky throughout my life. Sometimes I'm getting scared of myself too. Like my NUS admission, NUSSU Exco election, NOC intake and CreditSuisse offer. Those are some things that I'll never get unless I'm damn lucky. I'm scared that will all those things in future I have to pay a price...scared scared

Target for this summer: lose weight haha, driving my own car, and if possible watch Arashi concert in Tokyo.

It's been very looong time I didn't get a chance to update this blog. Partly that's because that I'm somewhat forgot that I once and still have a blog! lol. OK, many many updates that I havent put up yet.

Ok, lets start with modules *as always*. I am currently taking six modules, which is lesser than last sem. Why? Coz I scored quite badly last sem (1 A, 2B+, 3B!, shit la, worst ever) and I dont want to do the same this sem, so I decided to decrease my workload. So here I am, taking 4 computing modules (networking, operating system, information system and communication) and 2 biz module (econs and business law). The workloads are somewhat slacker, but I alrd determined to give my best for this sem, so I tried to catch up all modules in the recent recess week. Personally I believe that I'll do much better than last sem, with the condition that the theory of effort is proportional with score holds of course. (but still, though the day aft tmrw i'll be having 2 midterms, i'm still blogging zz zz) yosh!

Next update from NUSSU Exco thingy. Hmm...things arent going like I expected. I feel that I dont really get along with them...I really believe it's because of my English! I never expect that your inability to communicate in a language will bring such effect. But ya, it really brings your confidence level down, especially when you have to face those with superior leadership and communication skills...it's not that my English is that bad, but sometimes I find it hard to articulate my words well.. T_T.

But anyway, early in this year, I, with exco peeps. went to Australia to visit several university. IT WAS SUCH A GREAT EXPERIENCE! Though I'm not that comfortable with them, but Australia really cures my incomfortness haha. It was such a great place to live in! Much better than this little tiny Singapore hahaha..So we went to Brisbance, Gold Coast, Sydney and Melbourne. A lot of things happened there, memorable ones. I love all those cities, esp Sydney! Whoaa, a lot of shops manz! Piccadily, QVB, Paddy's Market etc etc. It's unfortunate that I didn't buy a lot of clothes T_T. Oh y, one more thing. Though it was summer when we went there, the breeze was so cold! I cannot tahan it...I am still a tropical person I guess.

What's more y? Hmm. Last sem I applied for NOC rite (this programme that have internship opportunity and exchange combined, abroad) to Silicon Valley. I got rejected on the first round. But fortunately I applied again this sem. An you know what! I GOT ACCEPTED^^. They only announce it like two weeks ago. So, next year I'll not going US, but Sweden instead Yay! Europe, wait for me ya!

Personally, *and commonly, I think that NOC is far way better than exchange. Coz? Besides studying, you will get a chance to do intern with startup company there. It's really a good opportunity with someone who want to have their own companies in the future. They not only teach you the basic theory of founding a company, but also provide you with a good practical experience, once again I said, overseas haha! So next next summer I'll find myself travelling around Europe. Amin!

More updates? Hmm....last week I got called for interviews for this summer internship. One with CreditSuisse, the other with Deloitte. I know. They're such big companies. I myself didn't expect that I'd be calles by them. But Alhamdulillah I got called. They will announce the result this week or next week. Please pray for me that I can get either one of them. Amin. ya Allah, please give me the best...

Ok la, that's all. Now, get back to mugging