There is this most irritating person that I've ever dealt with. Well let's say he's called A. A is a super structured person, everything must be organized, must be well-planned, must be well-thought etc. And very strict as well.

What's most irritating is that he tried to impose his thought process and behaviour to everybody around him. He tried to create rules, even ridiculous ones, hardly allow creativity and impulsive behaviour to happen. Even tried to tell us how and where to walk. Wtf. We're not kindergarten children hellooo?

And he always stick to his initial assumption, about his perception of a person even though he knows nothing about the rationale behind.

I just cant follow his thought of process, really, from the start until now. I am a really impulsive person. I change plan and adapt along the way. Anything that I feel and want at one point of time, I'll do it right away and I expect to get the results instantly. And of course, more than often, I have my own way to get things done, which is not through what he perceived as "normal" way. It's not that I'm not respecting you or something, but me and you cant really get along well because we are so different right from the start. I was raised in a family who literally give me freedom to do whatever I want, and truthfully, more often than not, I get what I want, partly because I'm damn stubborn.

I don't know how you were raised, because our age differences are so huge, but I assume that it must be quite structured and full of rules/plan/schedules etc? Maybe at some point of time in your life you felt so restrained about your own environment and plan to get revenge in the future, thus try to apply the same thing to us now.

If I were your daughter, I think now I wouldn't be in Stockholm, rather I'll be in Jakarta, reading medical book on weekends, studying medicine. Having no social life like you.

But seriously I can't live in that kind of world. I feel restrained. I can't truly maximize my, what you called, 'talent' if you ALWAYS try to get in my way! Seriously get the hell out of my way! Let me do whatever I want. I am mature. I know what consequences I'll get for an action. And even if it's bad consequences, I'm the one who'll get it anyway and it won't affect you and your dear reputation at all. So just stay away from my business.

You know what? You're really worth nothing in my life and soon as this is over, I seriously dont want to have any kind of business/interaction etc with you. During that short period of time, when you feel like you were helping/guiding me, you actually bring me more troubles with all those stupid rules/guidelines. I'd rather try and experience things myself rather than receiving stupid and too careful suggestion.

It's very unfortunate that I have to deal with him in a frequent basis, though not everyday (thankfully or I'd rather go some other countries).

I'll post this on my blog. Don't care if you happen to read it. I am as free spirited as I was before, no one can change that, even after you bring some little troubles in my life.


Haha I still have 2-2.5 years before my graduation, but I'll put wishlist here so that I could remember what I wanna achieve. Some are serious, some are just for fun (the list are randomly ordered)

1. Master some basic ice hockey technique and show them off at Sky Rink. You know, some basic stuff like cross-over, fast break and go backward. I've got my new Bauer Vapor and I wanna learn much moree hockey techniques

2. Find a career mentor. I seriously and desperately need a mentor! One that could guide me to be successful, preferably someone like Gita Wirjawan or Sandiago Uno (haha dreaming). Or at least someone who is experienced in the field that I'm interested in.

3. Make tons tons tons of contacts from everywhere.

4. Be involved in real M&A transaction(well, I've been an analyst for a sell-side acquisition before, but would like to know more about the nitty gritty of the deal itself, not just some financial modeling).

5. To achieve no.4, that means I must get internship related to finance (read: investment banking or private equity, no back-office/middle-office, even sales and trading is not included)

6. Found my own club in NUS. Get the idea after attending CinemaPolitica film screening in Stockholm. It's an organization that support freedom of speech and human right. Not really my thing, but could be fun as well :D

7. Interning at Papa's office. I'd like to know more about how he founded, run and maintain the business. Would like to also explore other opportunities to expand it. Hopefully like Wiwi, my sister, said, we could create a big empire in second generation. Amin. :D

8. Find good candidate for marriage haha

9. Find good partner in business with charisma and wide networks.

10. Do something charitable in Indonesia remote village and/or Africa, feels like simple life could be beneficial for mental growth sometimes. Will be good learning experience.

11. Visit Wall Street and New York

12. Try some classic painting class haha

OK, will update this list later when I got inspiration


I don't know why I became melancholic like this.
But please don't forget me even if I'm far away, I'll be back.
Because I won't forget you....I tried but I couldn't.