Winteru no Kokoro

I have one goal.

But there are 2 common ways to get there.

One is easy to enter but hard to go on. It is exciting but not guarantee achievements. Many give up, many more never make it to the end. Hard work and extreme luck are the key of success.

Another is extremely hard to enter. Some people may find it boring, some people desperately try anything to get there. Hard work is definitely required, but the results may be guaranteed.

Which road should I take? I'm so confused now. Previously I've made my mind for the second road. But because of the exposure that I have now, which seems to push me to the first road, I'm confused again.

April has been a crazy month for me. A lot of things going on, everything's going very fast and no more boredom :D

Feels like learning a lot this month. Now I'm finally relieved that myself being in Stockholm worth the time.

1. April starts off with Easter trip in which a great dosage of fun and unique experiences involved haha.
2. Some dinner meetings with Johannes and Maisy for cca projects.
3. Another ski trip with Carmen haha. I dont feel like improving my techniques though, just that I can go 10 mins faster down the slope. Anyway ski is super fun!
4. Planning class starts, so every Monday and Wednesday at least I have something to do haha
5. Rediscover my passion for movie haha. Been watching 3 movies this month : clash of titans, remember me, ghost writer
6. Electronic exhibition with InView. first time representing the company. quite boring though
7. Traders trophy..went to final, but didnt win. But met some great student traders though and lunched with Oxyor CEO (ok, i didnt know he was the CEO that time, only after he gave namecard...)
8. STOCKHOLM STARTUP WEEKEND. been the greatest startup events that I went to. basically it's like 54hours business camp. In 54 hours we need to come up with business plan and product prototype. Met tons of great people here, from developer, investors etc etc.
My team idea (Annika and me) is a site called EventGoerz. We didnt get first place, but we managed to get a chance to pitch in Startup day :D
9. yeah from no.8, now i have another focus. been busy this week thinking whether we should really continue building this company or not. been planning a lot of stuff, brainstorming a lot
10. yeah of course in the most unwanted moment my work at InView get busier as well..why dont they make me this busy one month ago where I have nothing else to work on except travel plan?
11. get in touch with him again, after sooo looonggg...just lift my mood up for the whole day today :D
11. just went back from StartUp Day. been really great day. Made lots of contacts, talked to lots of people abt our idea and how we can improve it and so on. Networking feels much different if you have concrete idea on what you need and what you gonna do. I mean, in networking events before this, I was just there for the sake of being there and getting new contacts. But now you have totally different feeling cause somewhat you know why you're there! and also good thing is you can explain that you're doing something other than "oh, i'm exchange student from singapore, but i'm also interning with bla bla bla". conversation will evolve from there :D

yeah in conclusion i love this month. i like its fast pace, things keep changing and improving and getting more exciting.

biggest issue is whether I should continue working on EventGoerz, the startup that I co-founded, or not. I mean i dont think it's gonna work personally...not because of the idea is bad, just because Annika and me have totally different working styles. she's too slack from my view haha, but she has good contacts though...afterall she's been in sweden for years.

but if we keep this up, in the process I'm sure I'll learn a lot (it's just like totally applying what i learnt in class to real life...one word...amazing!), gain lots of first-hand experiences and make lots of contacts. It's gonna be a very good experience and I have nothing to lose anyway. most importantly, it's gonna be fun!

april hasnt ended yet. and next week gonna be crazier if everything's in my agenda comes true.
1. going to venture cup final
2. fnishing up planning assignment
3. going to excitera innovation challenge final
4. attend globe forum, biggest innovation conference...u know...more and more interesting ppl coming
5. dinner+party with best...been a long time i wanna go cafe opera!
6. ROME!

hopefully everything goes as planned :D
i like it when everything's going very fast...like 24 hours is not enough for u...been quite sometime i didnt feel that way, but now yeah...it's here again :D
really need to learn and learn more things here.

OK, not a lot of work, keep blogging.
Have been taking different personality tests, but the result mainly either ENTP/ENFP/ESTP. Will comment shortly

Results:
ENTP - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

risk taker : yeah kind of, the thing that i hate most is boredom. risk is much better
easy going, outgoing, social : sometimes, depends on mood. but most of the time thats the case i guess
open : haha not at all. only a few ppl know what i'm really feeling
rule breaker, thrill seeker : haha SO ME!
life of the party : not really
comfortable in unfamiliar situations : yeah kind of. manage to settle and adapt everywhere
appreciates strangeness : yeah, for fun...not for serious stuff
disorganized : yeah, my room is in a mess everytime
adventurous : YEAH!
talented at presentation : NO! i'm lousy at pres seriously
aggressive : i think so
attention seeking : yeah most of the time
experience junky, insensitive : maybe...haha
adaptable : yeah can manage to survive even in jungle/desert i think (i should try that!)
not easily offended : haha unfortunately not. am easily offended just that I dont give a shit abt it
messy, carefree : YEAH! who wants to waste time to tidy up ur room when u can hv fun outside!
dangerous : i'm not lion
fearless, careless : YEAH
emotionally stable : oops no. I'm super moody
spontaneous, improviser : yeah. no plan always works better!
always joking, player : hmmm...not sure
wild and crazy, dominant : hmm...sometimes? depends with whom
acts without thinking : yeah, most of the time..and have to reap the consequences lolz
not into organized religion : no. i'm moslem :D and i believe it's organized..
pro-weed legalization : i dont care



ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

outgoing, social : sometime
disorganized : most of the time
easily talked into doing silly things : sometime, depends on mood
spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking : YEAH
good at getting people to have fun : sometime
pleasure seeking : YEAH, who doesnt?
irresponsible : yeah sometime/
physically affectionate : ??
risk taker, thrill seeker : YEAH
likely to have or want a tattoo: NO
adventurous : YEAH
unprepared : sometimes, dpends on degree of importance
attention seeking, hyperactive : sometimes
irrational : no...i'm quite rational i think
loves crowds : depends on mood
rule breaker, prone to losing things: YEAH...like totally
seductive : err
easily distracted, open, revealing : No. I'm super focused, and kinda closed i guess
comfortable in unfamiliar situations : yeah, see above
attracted to strange things: yeah see above
non punctual : YEAH...which indo is punctual?
likes to stand out, likes to try new things : YEAH. 2nd thing I hate : ordinariness.
fun seeker, unconventional : yeah
energetic, impulsive, empathetic : totally!
dangerous, loving : u cant combine this tgether (lazy to hit the enter button)
attachment prone, prone to fantasy : hmm


ENFP - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

content : what the hell is this
emotionally stable : no
outgoing, social, group oriented : depends on mood
finisher : yeah like totally! i cant leave things uncompleted
does not like to be alone : come on, who does?
open : no.
decisive : yeah. see fnisher.
likes external praise, likes to be center of attention : yeah, who doesnt?
frequently joking, adjusts easily : depends on mood
likes crowds : dpends on mood
self confident : yeah. u're not gonna make it in life if u dont believe in urself, idiot.
neutral moods : NO! I am super moody!
good at getting people to have fun: sometimes. just realize that i'm good at getting ppl into some unexpected events in a seemingly normal situation, which they like :D
disorganized, messy : TOTALLY
talented at presentation, : no. unfortunately :(
not easily annoyed : see above
does not like to be alone : who does?
enjoys crude jokes : sometime
likes to lead : like to be in control maybe, not lead
likes sports : yeah
more likely to come off as masculine : haha ironically a big yes..
risk taker : yeah
tends to dominate conversations :dpends on the other persons
fearless : sometimes
can handle criticism : yeah
hard to discourage : yeah. once i want sth..hard to stop haha

E and P seems always there. But I'm not sure abt the E though. Yeah I love meeting people because they're not boring and always bring me something new. But sometimes I prefer to take a walk in my own. Depends on mood like I always said.

P yeah..kinda not sure what it means though.

N and T comes 2 out of 3. N=intuition. Yeah, I really act based on my intuition.
T : thinking, sometimes......but truthfully I'm more a rational person rather than a person who act based on feeling (feeling here != intuition...feeling here is more like they always think about others first, try not to offend them).

So the conclusion, I'm still confused with my self lolz.

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
at work
2. Who are you in love with?
someone
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
no
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
dunno and dont care
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
last sunday, just pass by when it's still closed, if u meant shopping then when i was in paris.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
yes
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
dont hv car
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
cant drive. out of town last week for ski
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
yes. clahs of titans!
10. Are you hot?
i am keren.
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water
12. What are you wearing right now?
jeans+shirt (doh, engineers clothes..prefer suit much more haha)
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
dont hv car
14. Last food that you ate?
a ready-made frozen food...dont know the menu's name
15. Where were you last week at this time?
work..its monday
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
no. i lost my shopping appetite here (stockholm)
17. When is the last time you ran?
last night. half running back home
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
live : ice hockey match in january lolz
19. What is your favorite animal?
eagle!
20. Your dream vacation?
Ibiza parties + beaches
21. Last person's house you were in?
Jan's place in Bergen 2 wks ago
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
dunno
23. Have you been in love?
yes
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
yes
25. Last play you saw?
dont remember
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
listening
27. What are your plans for tonight?
lecture T_T
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
dont hve
29. Next trip you are going to take?
Rome. If it's not canceled bcause of stupid ash
30. Ever go to camp?
yeah, startup camp yesterday
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
yeah, long time ago
32. What do you want to know about the future?
stock mkt trend (haha sorry, still influenced by traderstrophy 2 days ago)
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
no
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
no
35. Where is your best friend?
sg+indo
36. How is your best friend?
theyr fine, thank u.
37. Do you have a tan?
no. 3 hours sunlight can help
38. What are you listening to right now?
nothing
39. Do you collect anything?
poker cards!
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
mama lawer
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
in a mall in jakarta, my friend forgot to bring driving license
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
yes, why not?
43. What does your last text message say?
i'm online
44. Do you like hot sauce?
yes
45. Last time you took a shower?
this morning.
46. Do you need to do laundry?
yeah and i really hate it!
47. What is your heritage?
keren family
48. Are you someone's best friend?
hopefuly
49. Are you rich?
soon to be. amin.
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
get high after camp

Summary of what I've done during the Great Easter Trip!

Bergamo :
-arrive at 12am
-sleep at airport (on the floor!)
-took train to Venice via Brescia

Brescia :
-walk around for 1.5hours in brescia
-found credit suisse office here (doh) haha
-continue train journey to venice

Venice :
-after 3-hour train journey, arrive at venice
-walk around venice, still carrying my whole backpack there
-took the vaporetto to get around venice
-visited St.marco cathedral, went to the museum and roof
-visited grand canal and that famous rialto
-1 hour bfore my train to milan, took vaporetto to a quite far island of venice, almost missed my train but luckily get back on time
-took a lot of great pictures in venice! lovely city!

Milan :
-meet up with Sandro, was brought to dinner to one of the posh area in Milan, Brera. nice tiramisu!
-networked with 4 Bocconians (2 alumni and 2 finance and marketing undergraduate), 1 NUS alumni (can u believe i met her in Milan?!), 1 trader. Haha good networking experience
-club at Milan. yeah baby, my first clubbing experience in europe was in milan, capital of nightlife haha! went to Just Cavalli, supposedly the most famous club in Milan (at least it's at travel guide book everywhere)
-didnt sleep at all that night
-plan to catch a train to go skydiving but was late. dont want to catch the next train as it's quite late
-continue sleeping until 2pm
-went to duomo! it's a perfect day that day with sun and 24 degree! love milan!
-went to castle
-stroll around milan city centre
-dinner at chinese restaurant with the guys
-learn insights abt doing business in Italy, esp private equity from Sandro. learnt a lot from him :D
-shop at Milan's Orchard Road (forgot the name of the street, was it Venice?), bought nice bags and sandals at Zara for EUR6.9 bcause the cashier gave me wrong change....where it's supposed to be EUR36.9
-took a bus tour around milan bcause my feet could no longer bear the pain T_T
-go to bergamo 5 hours bfore my flight to paris

Bergamo :
-took a short bus trip to Bergamo city centre and top hill. Nice view. Should spend more time there next time I visit it again (soon)
-fly to Paris

Paris :
-arrive at midnight, a bit scared in the metro because a lot of black people and it's midniht
-couldnt use the metro ticket so at the end i just jump over the gate to enter the station
-first day take a bus tour around paris. pass thru trocadero, eiffel tower, champs elysses, invalides, arc d triomphe and many other touristic sites. planned to go up eiffel tower but too crowded so decided to give it a pass that day.
-went to la defense, the modern part of paris.
-watch movies (shutter island) at la defense
-go to bar near Pantheon to meet up with Magali's friend = Gauthier and Chloe
-climb up the stairs of eiffel tower (i bought the wrong ticket which does not include elevator..so must use STAIRS to climb...oh my feet)
-had nice lunch with view at eiffel tower (cost me damn EUR20.5)..but anyway...
-went to Louvre, spend some hours there, disappointed with small Monalisa, I expected it to be much larger
-went along the Seine banks, so nice!
-went to Montmarte, almost cried T_T cause remember of one movie
-took random bus to get around Paris
-went to Versailles, successfully sneak in without paying hahaha but it was raining outside so didnt go to the park T_T
-went clubbing at Mix Club, Mont Parnasse. Seriously Paris club lives up to its name!! Had a lot of fun there! Magali, Chloe and Jennie totally rocked my night!
-went back from club at 3am, must walk to go back to where I stayed (which is near Eiffel tower)...so I went to eiffel tower at 3am hahaha, Paris at night quite scary though, not a lot of people..
-the last day, have dinner with Yejin and her friends at French bar, eat cheese (yes CHEESE) for dinner...arghh..and it's quite expensive
-took the first train to go to Beauvais airport to catch my flight to Oslo

Oslo :
-met up with Sara and Mbak Yuli, Mbak Yuli brought us around Oslo
-visit the famous garden (forgot its name) where there are a lot of nude sculptures
-visit the ski place, didnt ski though
-had dinner at mbak yuli's place! Indo food at last! after like 4 months!
-prepare for our most adventurous trip to Bergen
-took night bus to Sogndal

Sogndal :
-Sogndal is a small city near to Sognefjord. the reason I went there is to see the norway fjords! but that town is totally closed because of easter! nothing is opened, no one is around seriously!
-arrive at 5am, freezing...took a shelter at a hotel lobby
-brush teeth and wash face at deserted public toilet near the ports
-walk around the city only to figure out that NO ONE is around (until like 10am)
-back to our camp (a waiting room near the port) to have snack and prepare for hitchhike
-hitchhike to Balestrand (another small town near Fjord)...this is amazing, at first we thought that we gonna need at least an hour to get hitchhiked but it turned out we only need 5 mins...it's like the 5th car that we tried and they stopped! so lucky! we havent even stopped laughing (because hitchhiking is quite embarassing, everyone look at you, pointing at you, without stopping their cars haha, but it's so fun! we laugh bact at them hahaha). We hitchhiked the car of a Norwegian couple Leif and Katherine, apparently Leif is an artist who sells paintings about the Fjord to tourist. They're very nice! So lucky

Balestrand :
-enjoy the great view of Sognefjord! Seriously Norway Fjord is amazing!!
-walked around the small town to port
-need to wait around 3 hours for the ferry to bergen but NOTHING is open and it's freezing outside! We took a shelter, sitting in front of closed grocery shop on the floor with newspaper, just like homeless people.
-2 american backpackers (Evans and Patrick) came over, apparently they were also waiting for the ferry. yeah made new friends again :D
-took the ferry to Bergen! The view from the ferry is amazing!!! I really love Norway fjords! But everyone says it'll be more beautiful during summer,damn it!!

Bergen :
-arrive at bergen, had dinner, met up with Jan, sleep
-Jan brought us to see around Bergen, small but a lovely city
-visited small viking church and Bryggen, one of UNESCO world heritage sites
-hiked one mountain in Bergen, great view from the top!
-go home to Stockholm T_T

This trip is really a great experience for me. Other than visiting new places, I also met a lot of new people and had great time with them. In total visited 9 places (yeah some only for a few hours) and met around 30 new people I guess. Spend quite much though...around 7000sek incuding everything..but anyway, this is much better rather than sitting in front of the computer in the office..

Ah...cant wait for my next trip to Rome in May (but it's only for 4 days)