Reading other's blog has been an inspiring activity for me. I keep reflecting their thoughts with myself. What I have achieved? What I want to achieve? How can I be a better person? How should I plan my life ahead?Inspired by my senior's blog, I keep myself to make a full use of the chance I got. Usually I feel unchallenged after I got what I want. I let my motivation down and did not give my best. I regret what I cannot utilize in the past, and at this time. But I feel very grateful that there are still many things lie ahead of me, there's still many big chances that I can make use to improve myself.
I always regret how I cant make my junior and senior highschool meaningful enough. During that time, I only concentrated on one thing: study. What I did not realize was that the purpose of my parents 'put' me there: gain friends and build networks. My schools, objectively, are the perfect places to build your networks at early age you know? A lot of elite's children go there and as for my high school, intellectual people and future leaders are groomed there.
Why couldnt I make use of those opportunities? Why I limit myself only to my comfort zone? Why I exchange knowledge and experience only for meaningless entertainment? Why I dont like forcing my brain to think!
Another thing that I regret is that I cant utilize my free time effectively enough. Like I always o shopping when I got time : one thing that I hate (and love) by being a girl! Silly girl who keeps wasting her time for meaningless stuff. Typical girl who sometimes search for the next branded handbag she should buy. I sometimes regret this. If only I'm a guy, I should not have 'wasted' my time that way. I could use that precious time for something else; like some of my friends are now trading stocks or thinking of business plans. If only I'm a guy then I dont have to 'waste' my money buying some new clothes or makeups every month just because I'm boring with my current wardrobe.
Ah...but I am also grateful that I'm born a girl. But I still prefer to be a guy though...
Another thing that I regret is that during my time serving NUS Students' Union, I cant bring anything meaningful to the students. What I do was simply doing the normal 'job' stated in the jobscopes lol. I never really brought up an initiative that will benefit students. Ah, I'm so shamed of myself. Though it's my another big chance, but I cannot utilize it at all. Though I'm at the position who can brings improvement for the community, I didn't.
Alhamdulillah I got 2 big chances in my near future. First, the internship with CreditSuisse, one of the top investment bank, private bank and wealth management assets in the world. And my NOC, an NUS program dedicated for students who want to become future entrepreneurs. Both of them are magnificent chances that only Allah can bring to my life.
I will be working as intern at CreditSuisse technology division this summer, in the Technology Infrastructure Service (TIS) team. I'm really looking forward to it since I'll be working at the-coolest-building-of-my-version-in-singapore-CBD which is One Raffles Quay, with a bank somemore. It's like a perfect first step to my dream job. Hopefully I can use the opportunity to improve my understanding in financial world as well as keeping myself update with the latest technology development. And build networks also. Hopefully I can build a good relationship with my bosses and colleague!
I am so excited, and worried as well, cause my past work experience is not so good, mainly because I am not so good in programming and I am so careless. It's been a painful yet meaningful experience. Now I can only ive my best and leace the result to Allah.
Ganbatte ne!