Winteru no Kokoro

The adolescence that I'm talking about here is more about the searching for identity, that is. Well, I think I just began to grow up mentally last summer, when I interned at CS. Seriously, that simple internship changed my life forever. I started to learn about the importance of many intangible values like trust, friendship, leadership and all that. Previously I heck care about all those things, you know, I only care about fun and interesting things that would keep me out of boredom. I hate philosophy back then, after all I've been always an action-oriented person so I don't really want to 'think' to deep.

But really, from then on I enjoy human interaction and sharing session more than anything. I'd love to have a cup of coffee or dinner with someone and try to 'dig up' their experiences and thoughts. I became more sensible to my surroundings. Well yeah, I'm still selfish but I am no longer ignorant.

Yeah, up until now I'm still searching for my true self. Well, searching is not a right word...perhaps 'forming'? My true self if not out there, it's something that I must create myself.

Anyway, I just meet this stranger, a Mexican who's stayed at Texas but now teaching in Slovakia. He's very interesting and only in 3 days I learnt a lot from him. Well I told you, I receive knowledge more easily from the people who is enthusiastic about what they talked about (like American and Indian). His experience itself taught me that there are various things to live your life meaningfully. Everything is not about money and power. He used to think that way, he was business student after all. But well yeah, I don't know the real reason but he ditched all of that and became an English teacher at Slovakia.

Go the road less traveled or so people say. It's hard for a very business-minded and capitalist like me to think that the other way of life worth living. I'm very used to talk about everything in term of money, if not power and influence. Well, if you read Forbes often, you have no choice but to wonder how the people make it to the list and you started having ambition to be there as well someday...

But yeah, I guess my mind has changed a bit, thanks to his conspiracy theories and all that. I wish I could take another gap year to really go the road less traveled, before I really choose which way I wanna go